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Crash, crash . . . burn, let it all burn
So, while the fandom is learning about the BIG NEWS cooked in the KAT-TUN kitchen, ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
fic_the_faith continues to post. Let me just say that the community is so so so pretty. Also people have been totally sweet about commenting <3
I don´t have an emo icon.
i should probably say THIS IS NOT BETAed
Right I am reading mostly the shorter fics, kind of, in between writing my thesis and dying. I am so totally tired and whiped that I have become an emotional wreck. I am letting my phone die so my mother doesn´t call me to ask how many pages and consultations I have gone through, anymore. My only civilization is lunch time with my friend who too spends her time doing nothing but writing. We rant for 20 minutes eating school canteen food and go back. My freaking roommate turns off the light at 10 pm so I am squinting over a small lamp, she grunts and tosses like crazy until I go to sleep, making me feel like a guilty bitch. My eyes are hurting from staring at my pc and books for about 20 hours a day and they revert to the unseeing ones from about three weeks back time to time. The deadline is next Wednesday, which means Thursday as it has to be printed out and put into a hard binnd. I don´t think it is happening, but it seems I will be trying until the very end. Sorry if I am random, or do not pay attention or anything. I seriously kind of am on the edge. Don´t know what kind of edge. I need this month to just end. Someone hacked/stole my mac address and have been downloading idk what (but probably porn, knowing idiots living in this dorm) usng my account. They turned my internet off on Friday. I had a major freak out, since there is about zillion ECJ or CJEU or whatever decisions online, that I just have on tabs all day long. I hacked myself back through university cache. The moment they officially turned me back on, the same person (or I think so) did it again, but managed to stop just short of 3GB and then today again. I now have a brand new fake mac address, and am waiting how long it will take them to get it. The administrators told me to get a bandwith tracker and stop downloading movies when I see I am close to 3GB. I do not swear. Fuck!
To make this post a bit idk with a point. ftf Fic for me, Maruda, kind of ...
Fix for Vix, it feels weird linking it before she even got to read it, but I love it too much. The way it is written is about how I feel right now. Right did I mention my emotions are out of control? Right, I cried over that story like a stupid girl.
I hate how one thesis on something I have read tons of articles on, something that I enjoy and am good at is turning me into a feeble creature trembling in a corner of her own insecurities. Guys I have never ever not managed my school. I can´t even look at it anymore. And I feel like a complete failure because until one point I was on top of this piece of complete ...
right. 6 more days to go
fic_the_faith continues to post. Let me just say that the community is so so so pretty. Also people have been totally sweet about commenting <3I don´t have an emo icon.
i should probably say THIS IS NOT BETAed
Right I am reading mostly the shorter fics, kind of, in between writing my thesis and dying. I am so totally tired and whiped that I have become an emotional wreck. I am letting my phone die so my mother doesn´t call me to ask how many pages and consultations I have gone through, anymore. My only civilization is lunch time with my friend who too spends her time doing nothing but writing. We rant for 20 minutes eating school canteen food and go back. My freaking roommate turns off the light at 10 pm so I am squinting over a small lamp, she grunts and tosses like crazy until I go to sleep, making me feel like a guilty bitch. My eyes are hurting from staring at my pc and books for about 20 hours a day and they revert to the unseeing ones from about three weeks back time to time. The deadline is next Wednesday, which means Thursday as it has to be printed out and put into a hard binnd. I don´t think it is happening, but it seems I will be trying until the very end. Sorry if I am random, or do not pay attention or anything. I seriously kind of am on the edge. Don´t know what kind of edge. I need this month to just end. Someone hacked/stole my mac address and have been downloading idk what (but probably porn, knowing idiots living in this dorm) usng my account. They turned my internet off on Friday. I had a major freak out, since there is about zillion ECJ or CJEU or whatever decisions online, that I just have on tabs all day long. I hacked myself back through university cache. The moment they officially turned me back on, the same person (or I think so) did it again, but managed to stop just short of 3GB and then today again. I now have a brand new fake mac address, and am waiting how long it will take them to get it. The administrators told me to get a bandwith tracker and stop downloading movies when I see I am close to 3GB. I do not swear. Fuck!
To make this post a bit idk with a point. ftf Fic for me, Maruda, kind of ...
Fix for Vix, it feels weird linking it before she even got to read it, but I love it too much. The way it is written is about how I feel right now. Right did I mention my emotions are out of control? Right, I cried over that story like a stupid girl.
I hate how one thesis on something I have read tons of articles on, something that I enjoy and am good at is turning me into a feeble creature trembling in a corner of her own insecurities. Guys I have never ever not managed my school. I can´t even look at it anymore. And I feel like a complete failure because until one point I was on top of this piece of complete ...
right. 6 more days to go
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you hear me !!!
you will be on time
I even had an argument with mom about it ...so ... she was pleased I stood on your side and shocekd at the same time ...but no use she says only those things she wants to hear and doesn´t accept anything
well, fuck it ...you just write and ...hopefulyl you will manage to contact your consultant soon ...
but yeah ...you will make it !!!!!!!!!!!!!
have cute maru on top
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Cute Maru is cute, thanks for standing up for me, though I am sorry you fought with her, I know it´s no use.
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I have faith that you will be able to finish your work in time. In the time that I have known you, I haven't know you to be anything other than an intellectual bad ass. You will finish, kitto.
Also, you are doing an amazing job at running an entire fic exchange during the most stressful time in your school year and you deserve lots of hugs and coffee and puppies and kudos.
Please let me know if there is anything At All I can do to make your life easier.
<3<3<3
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Thanks about ftf <3 Though it was Gwynn posting the past three days. It´s nothing though, doing the exchange work, there isn´t much, people are wonderful and it keeps my mind of things a little.
Thanks for the offer, I am afraid this is my battle only.
♥
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Hang in there! And you're doing a great job with the exchange! <333333
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I hope the thesis proposal goes fine for you!
And thanks for ftf as well. Gwynn´s been in charge of the posting until now though, so I will pass it on.
And thanks for all the lovely comments you are leaving!
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som bola out teraz dlho, tak dobieham..
k stresu nad pisanim uz niet co dodat..
intrakovi zlodeji porna ftw.
a My freaking roommate turns off the light at 10 pm so I am squinting over a small lamp, she grunts and tosses like crazy until I go to sleep, making me feel like a guilty bitch.
Prisaham, ze taky clovek je snad na kazdej intrakovej izbe. xD
Blah, tento koment je maximalne zbytocny.
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