I too can be cryptic ...
Jan. 13th, 2010 11:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
higure
Sorry for spamming when I said I would post less. Sorry if this is cryptic, it is not really meant for anyone in particular, it is just a warning for the future.
I have no idea if I come across as a nice or a mean person, if I come across as someone who argues and bickers and hurts people. I have no idea what all of you expect of me on daily basis.
To address this before it eats me alive. As much as I love you all and try to be tolerating, understanding, try not to let my own opinions, believes and standpoints get into a way of seeing yours in a neutral way, sometimes I fail.
I have days when everything piles up and I get sad, I cry and I am angry. I am a bitch on those days. Mostly I crawl under a rock and play some music, read a book, get back to normal and all is fine. But sometimes I still end up being a bitch.
If on a such a day you talk to me and we happen to disagree I will tell you. I will tell you you are making me sad, angry, mad, pissed of. I will tell you so bluntly. I will tell you not to push me and to leave it be. I will warn you about me being in a fool mood. I will ask you to just not elaborate on a subject on which we disagree. Because if you keep going I will be nasty.
Please listen to me on that day. Please tolerate my far from perfect personality and leave whatever it is we are arguing over be. On those days it´s hard to see your side of the story and my is dark and hostile. Leave it until I feel better and am ready to understand and tolerate again. Please, please, please ...
These days do not happen often and when they do they are bad. I will never tell you what to do on those days again, because I am ashamed of myself. I am nowhere near proud of myself for having to tell you today.
Please ...
I have no idea if I come across as a nice or a mean person, if I come across as someone who argues and bickers and hurts people. I have no idea what all of you expect of me on daily basis.
To address this before it eats me alive. As much as I love you all and try to be tolerating, understanding, try not to let my own opinions, believes and standpoints get into a way of seeing yours in a neutral way, sometimes I fail.
I have days when everything piles up and I get sad, I cry and I am angry. I am a bitch on those days. Mostly I crawl under a rock and play some music, read a book, get back to normal and all is fine. But sometimes I still end up being a bitch.
If on a such a day you talk to me and we happen to disagree I will tell you. I will tell you you are making me sad, angry, mad, pissed of. I will tell you so bluntly. I will tell you not to push me and to leave it be. I will warn you about me being in a fool mood. I will ask you to just not elaborate on a subject on which we disagree. Because if you keep going I will be nasty.
Please listen to me on that day. Please tolerate my far from perfect personality and leave whatever it is we are arguing over be. On those days it´s hard to see your side of the story and my is dark and hostile. Leave it until I feel better and am ready to understand and tolerate again. Please, please, please ...
These days do not happen often and when they do they are bad. I will never tell you what to do on those days again, because I am ashamed of myself. I am nowhere near proud of myself for having to tell you today.
Please ...
