higure

Today, the day has come for me to be name dropped on a hate meme.

Maybe some other day, I would just shrug it off and move on. But today, it wasn’t the best of Mondays, so I got upset over it.

I mean, I always thought that if I should ever be relevant enough for one of these memes, it would be because of my modding attempts. Otherwise, I feel quite irrelevant in fandom. The last fic I posted out of exchange, for example, got no comments. But I’m not the most lenient mod, and sometimes I wonder if I’m not taking “fandom responsibilities” a bit too far – compared to how some other people view them. But surprisingly, even after the harsher mod runs (and I had a few) people always stayed classy, and I never had a reason to second guess my mod decisions because someone dished them on a hate meme and everyone joined the bandwagon as it happens.

But today someone actually, very helpfully, LINKED me to a silly name drop of mine. And after 4 years of happy fandom oblivion, the one thing that got me mentioned is purely an association with ONE of my friends.

I am a big girl. I’m 26, and perfectly fine with deciding for myself who I’m friends with. What really upsets me is to be defined solely based on the people I associate with. And what upsets me even more is that basically whole KAT-TUN fandom apparently is defined by this. So really, I was upset because there were my friends being talked mean about, there was this whole notion of KAT-TUN fandom being judged, and then there was me being . . . what was it exactly? Looked down on because I don’t know any better?

KAT-TUN fandom is so small lately. Or so I feel. Please stop kicking it while it’s on the ground. I like it; I don’t want people second guessing their involvement because of anything, no matter how insignificant the thread on a hate meme might seem in a big picture.

As for me. I don’t think this is a case and I have faith in my friends. BUT I would like to ask anyone who has issues with me being friends with different people to defriend me. As sad as it is, I would rather not have you on my friends’ list than to have you judging me because of my other friends or even worse to have you pitying me because I am somehow blind or incompetent and can’t chose my friends well.

For all I know, this was one person, and this person doesn’t even know me and just saw me on FTF or Jent or during some exchange posting. But this has been eating away on me because it just has been one of those days.

For what it is worth, you are all my friends because I want you to be, and GREAT chances are I was the one friending you. I really do hope you can like me even if I am easily susceptible to fandom favors.

<3

Okay, never mind, I just want to do this.

SMUT MEME?

Or something like that.

Comment with a pairing AND a prompt/situation/kink/combination of the three, and I’ll see if I can give you a section or two of it.

This is KAT-TUN/NEWS/Kanjnani8 only and I won’t porn Junno and Tegoshi, sorry. Also LOL I haven’t written many of K8 but I’m willing to try. The same goes for most of the kinks. You never know.

You may give me as many prompts as you want (in separate comments) and I may chose not to write any of them ;D This is for fun, pigs can fly.

<3

new hair; it looks cute, what the . . .
9 working days left till Christmas vacation
flight ticket to Japan booked!!!! April 27 2012 - May 8 2012

love meme, my thread. I really, really promise to come out of this constant string of chores and work and doctors and flat hunting (OMG!) and comment on your threads on this and the time capsule meme sometimes right before Christmas. It'll be like really late, pleasant surprise?

Only 9 days of crazy. I am already planning tasks for January and planning what I will do work wise during the vacation, BUT! *just keep swimming*

I've started the full inbox project, so let's hope I have inspiration enough to write to 7 people for a week :D

I might have parasol_odori next week. Excite!

Today marks two finally:

I finally posted the help_japan fic, and I am so, so, so happy. I can now move on and concentrate on hols. We'll see how that goes.

And I finally posted the pictures I mentioned some time ago. It's the collection from the time I took a walk up to the castle. Click on the picture bellow to see the rest. Any of them can be seen in the original size when you right click on them, idek maybe some of the ones with views could have been bigger.


Have a nice week!

My head’s been hurting so much all day, but I was so set to post that I just had to. If this makes next to no sense because of the headache, then I apologize.

So The Anti-friending meme. Ever since I first got the idea presented to me, all I could think of was ruffled feathers. I know it was one of the things that could do that. Ruffle feathers that is. I am sorry if it felt like too much, too negative and completely unnecessary, and I hope you forgive me my extravagant moment of hosting it anyway.

My other concern with it was that it could turn to flat out hate meme. But people were pretty good with it, other than occasional efforts of trying too hard to make their point and failing at recognizing when it is better to stop. Then the meme got killed by a true hate meme (I has impeccable timing), so maybe that is a reason why people were rather civil too. Thank god for that because I almost did not sleep that night, afraid of letting it go unattended. In a way, this too is a conclusion, fandom can handle itself on occasions.

The whole thing was rather interesting. I’m sure I had more conclusions, but by now, the following three stuck in my mind, so here you go:( pairings, coherence and connectivity )

Anyway, personal result of the meme. I suppose I have always known that being RyoDa fangirl means people are cautious of friending you. But lately I have had such a steady and nice friend list that I almost forgot. The meme reminded me that RyoDa fangirls are considered crazy and more thread than an asset to one's friends list. Therefor I now love you even more for giving me a try and tolerating my crazy. I know my mind can get very one-track sometimes when it comes to my OTP, but I hope I do not annoy you with it too much.

After that very serious fandom analysis (LOL, fandom is serious business), have my Saturday night joy. I spent my Saturday at work, but took a walk on my way home and got myself something to liven up my kitchen. With the choice I made, it seems fall is really coming.



It is a pretty fall though! The weather forecast for the next two weeks is sunny and still around 20 °C or only a little less so this is great *____________* I took a walk up to the castle today after work, so I need to sort and post those pictures sometimes. It was rather pretty.

And lastly, my sister, chivakaza is safely in Japan, probably sleeping more than 24 hours of travel and official business away. I am relieved, she seemed to have handled it like a boss and now she has an amazing year ahead of her. (LOL she also sent her friends to my journal to find out if the plane did not crush and since she might not have the internet for a while, I figured I'd leave this public so that curious people not willing to wait 5 months before getting worried know she is fine and safe)

I last posted 20 days ago. Scary! Anyway there has been very little people reacting to my posts lately. While I try to not let it get to me, especially when I rumble about my private life, when I flail about fandom and nothing happens, it kind of saddens me. I need people to flail with. Anyway, the point is. If you do not read my entries and skip over them, do us both a favour and defriend me. Thank you very much.

Now that the bitching part is over, I have been all over the place in those 20 days. There has been plenty I wanted to post about, but then some things happened that made me draw back a little. I apologize for not commenting on your posts guys, I have seen several picture posts and such *____* so just know that I'll try to get back on track again.

Anyway, bullet points :
* I've gone to see fireworks; and have been on a boat trip and to a castle; basically I'm saying good bye to Brno, and it is sinking in that I am leaving. I admit, it is scary, but such is life.

* There has been my PC giving me blue screen and all kinds of messed up messages so I have it reinstalled and lost all my bookmarks ;____; I also lost that set of cute Japanese emot-icons. If someone still remembers how to install them, I'll be the happiest kid on the block.

* Most importantly, I have packed my stuff here and moved most of it to Prague this weekend (forgot the camera at home, which is why pictures to follow are kind of sucky):

<3 My parents picked me and my stuff up in Brno on Saturday, and on our way to Prague we stopped to eat in some village off highway. They had a tree that is 500 - 600 years old.
( See under the cut! )

O.O We arrived to Prague and proceeded to get stuck in a NEW elevator in my apartment building with the mother of the owner of that apartment who panicked, turned red and started to talk about forgetting her medication for high blood pressure. It took 45 minutes to get us out of there. Click the cut for picture of "my" calming medication:
( baileyyyys )

D: I found my new room not ready and the apartment in a mess (my new roommates did not leave me any space in the fridge or the bathroom and did not bother even washing the dishes before they left for the weekend). So no pictures yet and our first talk will be an interesting one.

♥ Then we proceeded to wander around Prague and eat and have coffee and all around good time. My parents snuck me into their hotel room so I stayed there for the night, which was a great thing given the state of my room.
( Pics taken on Charles bridge under the cut )

:D today we dropped the rest of the bags off - thankfully the elevator worked already - and left Prague because it was raining there.
( Under the cut are two more random pictures )

Anyway in the very little fandom news:
!!! DOA deadline is approaching and I am trying not to panic over not hearing anything from most of the teams.
♥ I had a historic ryoda fic written for me
??? today I came back to concrit meme, so here's my thread, please don't be gentle.

That is all. I am off to find a place where they'll fix my bike in Brno and then collapse because I am soooo tired. I am leaving Brno for good this Thursday and I hope the rest of the move will go smoothly. Talk to you from Prague <3

I think I actually had a post planned for tonight, but now I don't remember what it was about.

Sign ups for je_devilorangel close tonight if you are still wavering ;D The turn out so far is great.

I remembered one thing! I have new friends *____* welcome! There's an intro post though you probably already knew that if you wanted to know. To the future !

In flash news, the company I interviewed with this week didn't let me know yet, and it may mean they have chosen someone else and won't even let me know. All in all, given how big of a rush they've been in, it is very likely that I am out, so that is what I am expecting if they DO let me know.

I spent most of today shopping or more like getting myself to the mall and back from it. The ride was actually beautiful and the bus took a road I've never took before. I didn't even mind it was a 40 minutes long ride with a stop on every corner. At the mall, I gave myself a headache in the second clothes store and I have not found shoes yet again. But I have one new shirt and new jeans since the old ones fell apart. I don't wear jeans that often anymore, given I don't wear casual stuff like that to work, but yeah they were needed. The tax refund came at the right time.

I've been mostly bumming around since I came home, and I don't plan on doing much else than finishing Arashi Scene concert today. (I know I am an awful fan for taking this long to watch, but it is long and shiny and distracting so I can't watch it and do something else at the same time. BUT what I saw yesterday is AWESOME, and I do not get why I was on such an arashi diet up till now.) And so I am snatching a meme from ryogrande that looks fun and less lethal than asking for quick drabble prompts, an idea that crossed my mind briefly. (I have fics to write, you guys, I know, I am so glad this came around)

Give me a character from any fandom I know at least fairly well, and I will tell you:

A) My OTP
B) The runner up
C) The anti-ship
D) My unpopular/fannish opinion on said character
E) One person he/she never fell in love with, and why.

Let's have some fun!

Oh, I'm making curry rice tomorrow, but I don't have the instant curry cubes, so technically I am making t from the scratch. I have a curry paste and I have the curry spice (and have yet to decide how exactly I am doing this), so if you have an advice for me, I will gladly read some ;D

I’ve been pretty sick for over a week now. I ended up crawling to the doctor’s office last Wednesday, and he gave me tons of medicine that make me have cramps on most days but that finally seem to be working. He also told me to stay home for 2 WEEKS! I am trying really hard not to think of how my January paycheck will look like when I receive it at the beginning of February. I bargained a deal of being allowed to go to work a bit earlier if I feel better, but at the end, I will have missed 8 work days by this Monday when I finally plan to go back. I still don’t feel good enough now, so let’s hope I’ll be okay enough by then.

The other reason this sickness sucks (other than not being at work for a long period of time within my probation period and no money and my colleague thinking I’m having a blast) is that my parents are going skiing around February 20th and I was invited to go with. I was planning on taking a week off for that (because it is Italy and I can take being with my parents much better on ski trips where I basically ski without them all they and they would pay and I would close my eyes to that for once), but I can’t possibly miss another week of work next month when I was not there since January 5th ;__;

There is nothing much else to say since I was basically able to just sleep and eat medicine (that drugged me up decently) for the past week. News worthy is the fact that fic_the_faith as well as Ficolate assignments went out. YAY! Are you excited? I am mostly scared out of my pants.

Oh, I’m finally getting back on track with sanslunettes project. I also created mydramalist if someone wants to know what dramas I’ve see and got a tumblr where I plan to stalk people and their pretty. By the way, who should I stalk? What’s the procedure?

Right. A friend sent me an article to translate today so in a fit of feeling a bit better I did translate it. Unfortunately surrogate motherhood took away all my enthusiasm to finally finish something I had planned for today. So instead, have a freakishly long and very late year in review fic meme.

( I definitely am too wordy )

So I thought I would do this one only after coming home along with one other thing I want to do but here I am. ROFL sorry about posting like crazy these days.

A pronunciation meme (in which Alex sounds like a six years old and very affectedly).
Stolen from drphoenix

☆ Make a voice post with the following things so that your F-list can hear how you pronounce them (and laugh at you, of course):

▊ Your name and/or username
▊ Where you're from
▊ The words "roof", "aunt", "direction", and "naturally"
▊ Your favorite song
▊ Your favorite character
▊ A word in a different language

here´s the file. Enjoy

I´ve been dealing with a very difficult participant of jrockurisumasu all weekend long, and today at noon I just gave up. The girl has no clue how the exchange works in the first place, and I just need a breather before I send her another email. Her English is so poor it makes me cringe at times. IDK how she fooled me in sign ups. I’m trying simple and short sentences here, but . . .

I have also packed. A lot. Still my room looks almost untouched. I have to decide how much books (if any) I’m going to take with me, but the moving plans changed a little so I’ll see. I think it seriously depends on whether I’ll find some good (and masculine) soul to help me carry it all into the flat in Brno.

Hmm . . .LJ´s gone crazy because of some weird account suspensions. I’m staying put mostly, but I have had a dreamwidth account for some time and since it took 3 minutes I just imported my LJ entries there. If someone on my flist is seriously moving there (or doesn´t mind having an empty journal in their circle or whatever they call it) let me know (or just add me). My username over there is higure. And I have a few invites left if someone needs one.

Oh yeah, this weekend was one of the least productive ones ever, so let’s redeem it a little. Long long time ago, I did that meme when I asked people what I should blog about. And the only thing I got out of it (which is probably a good thing, given how long it took me to get to it) was underwear (courtesy of goldfreckled). So ( here you go: )