I fell apart, but I got back up again, And then I fell apart, but got back up again, yeah

[higure]

fic_the_faith has finished posting yesterday. I should probably be reading some fic rather than making this post (in my break), and there hopefully be time to say this “officially”, but there is a lot of emotions.

It went by so so fast! I am nowhere near catching up with reading the fic. I actually think I clocked on like the 3rd fic of the 2nd day and did some random out of the order reading then because a thing or two were shorter. It is so funny, though. While I understand about people wanting reveals early on, I didn´t know until I really really thought about it that I want to wait until I have time to read them all. Which at the present moment I don´t. But in this way, given hyphen_chan´s connections and tongue faster than brain or something, I am special. From the standpoint of the participants, I think they are better on Wednesday.

I am, however, loving every moment of this. People has written some great things, are really nice about reading and commenting and the use of sparkles is *___*

Don´t you ever tell me KAT-TUN fandom is akame against the world, or cold as their idols or whatever. People (at least in this little corner of the fandom) are amazing!

Fun facts that I believe can be disclosed. There was no need for pinch hitters. At one point, hyphen_chan has wondered if there even would be Jin/Kame tag and icon necessary. We thought we were gonna come down the history as that KAT-TUN fic event that has ignored the biggest ship of the fandom. On the other hand, we had JinDa A DAY!!! I am also loving the fact there are two JinRu fics. I haven’t read neither. To complete, there are three Jin/Junno ones. So if you were wondering what people are lacking normally . . .

I love it when hyphen_chan´s inbox suddenly lights up from grey to white and red in the left bottom corner of my screen! I plan on reading, not only skimming through every single comment! I love the quoting, the colours, commenters quoting each other back, the sparkle explosions, people going so so out f their ways!!! And I love the Dutch alter ego of hyphen_chan for being awesome pants! She keeps my faith (and face) . . . So there, be it my never ending proclamation of love for that community. It has kept me sane for the past week. It has given me back much much more than I put in. Oh just I am not looking for like people telling me here how much they liked it or how we did or anything, I am not coercing things out of you in that sneaky way, just I felt the need to state these things. I´d rather you tell hyphen_chan after reveals are up what it felt like. The Dutch alter-ego needs to see too . . .

While we are at it, I just learned my consultant might not have time to read through my thesis anymore. Got another two-line email today. Which I have no clue how I should take. I don´t know if it means that, if she doesn´t make it, I won´ t be able to hand the thesis in. Or if it just means the column of “was the thesis properly consulted” on my evaluation will say no or the lower grade or whatever and she will put me down in that evaluation. It would be freaking great to know if I am trying for nothing, or if they let me at least hand it in on Wednesday at the risk of failing me through consultant and opponent evaluation process.

As it is, I do not sleep and just write and feel kind of sick atm. Forming coherent thoughts, creating hypothesis and deducing conclusions have become physically painful process. Thus, naturally I won´t even find out if I got the conclusions right. I just hope I will get hold of my English beta in time. If I have all chapters but conclusion written by tomorrow night, I am handing it in no matter what. That said, the chapter I am writing now is killing me. I hate safeguarding basic principles and playing with words like public order, mandatory, international mandatory rules and stuff. Just saying.


For me it is the real outcome for the practice that matters, and unfortunately, that is one conclusion that I can´t make. That it doesn´t really matter WHAT it is, the whole thing is about EU just acting authoritative even outside it´s territory and definitely outside its referred competence and eventually upholding rules she finds apt no matter how the rest of the world sees them, disregarding whatever she sees fit to close her eyes to including some sort of working, independent system arbitration might have (also much older than EU integration one must say). Using the Court of Justice, a court, not an elected organ, that is shaping and making (not by far only interpreting) EU law applicable to, at the present time, citizens of 25 states. As it pleases and without any real conference of powers done in that supposedly democratic way of choosing our representation. This has been known forever now, IDK why is everyone pretending it is not happening anymore. They really do as they please, and the argumentation behind their decisions is so full of lacunas sometimes it´s not even funny (read worse than mine that I am presenting here).

Sorry you didn´t want to hear that. I just wanted to scream this at a few of the authors I have read recently. Ignoring the reality of the practice and embarking on long, complicated theoretical discussion that conclude in immediately changing the primary law of EU (that is so so so rigid it hurts) is useless. It brings no real solutions and only makes for them having another publication under their belt in their hunt after yet another few letters in front of or behind their names. I am obviously bitter. Not thinking clearly right now. On my better days, I see EU in much more positive light and am not EU pessimist. Though again, I just stem from the fact it is here and, rather than tearing down everything, people should look ahead and try to adapt and learn how to use the advantages of the system instead of whining about theoretical flaws in its basis.


3 MORE DAYS! And nights. And it is over. I think then I want to sleep for at least a week. I am afraid that wish won´t be granted ;__;

See you at reveals! Lol I wonder if someone tried to guess who wrote what, I am not the one who thinks people should purposefully change their style to hide their identity, but i think people tend to surprise even themselves when writing for exchanges. Do you guess afterwards? Or do you not even try?

Comments

[creamy-amande.livejournal.com]

Like I said, I prefer the furthest date because like you, I have no time or as usual, can't concentrate on reading fictions much at work and when at home, I wanna rest my eyes about squinting on different color font and sizes....so I'll be late as usual after reveals, that's for sure!

Of course I haven't understood a thing about your thesis but what I can tell, is that I hope you're managing.

[sanjihan.livejournal.com]

I'm glad the exchange went so well! That's amazing! Congrats. :D

Urgh, thesis consultant, why so difficult. :( I hope that works out. And that you feel better soon. *comforts*

[tokeruyouna.livejournal.com]

Maybe you are lucky that you have not had time to read many of the FtF fics; as much as the exchange was great, I am SICK of KAT-TUN fic. I do not try to guess who wrote fic as I go along, but sometimes I can tell as I am reading it anyway.

Good luck finishing, and get some sleep afterwards.

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

I´ll be late too

<3

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

<3 thanks, it has been awesome!

in three days, at least physical state should improve
btw welcome back!

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

lol, that too would be unheard off, too much of good kattun fic to handle. Now I am interested which exactly you guessed this time.

thanks and will!!!

[tokeruyouna.livejournal.com]

We can talk about those after reveals and you getting some (preferably several days of) sleep!

[myxstorie.livejournal.com]

ftf has been AMAZING, and you and Gywnn have been wonderful ♥ the amount of Jinda was so awesome, too! ♥

Don´t you ever tell me KAT-TUN fandom is akame against the world, or cold as their idols or whatever. People (at least in this little corner of the fandom) are amazing!
This. I've been really pleasantly surprised by the amount of wank I HAVEN'T seen from people on my flist, and I think we're all very lucky (because many of us share a big chunk of friends) to know such a wonderful group of people. In every fandom there are the bad apples and rotten eggs and so on, but I'm proud to know each and every one of my friends, and everyone in this exchange, from what I've seen, has been just wonderful.

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

♥ the amount of JinDa was shocking! when we received the questionnaires back it was so funny ^^

About kattun, I know, right? like there were all kind of fics and people read all kind of parings ... and stuff ... so yeah :D lol reveals tomorrow . . .