Panick attack!
Oct. 22nd, 2009 10:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
higure
I am in so much trouble!!!
Because of my tooth and some other mainly unimportant and stupid stuff I have been ignoring school for the first month of it. Now I am finally in Brno and so I e-mailed the supervisor/consultant (not sure how to call her really) for my thesis. I have to take this subject literally called "thesis seminar" this year, they don´t really teach you anything in there, it doesn´t even have classes or a schedule. In order to pass we have to fulfill the conditions given to us by our consultant. So I was like: “Sorry, I didn´t email you earlier, what do I need to do?”
Clearly I was hoping she would take it easy, she is coincidently the dean of our faculty and is really busy. I was hoping to start writing and just send her first half (or part) in January. But she wants me to do this methodically!!!
She wants me to write introduction including my premise/hypothesis divided into partial objectives and describe my work methods until the end of November ( that is in one month!). Then she wants the first chapter by the end of January. Work methods shouldn´t be a problem really, but premises, partial goals? I was kind of hoping that the intro with those could be the last thing written! I know it makes no sense, but I have no idea where this will take me. No one wrote anything close to this before and I was hoping to come up with them while I write. I mean to write the intro would mean that I have already read all of my sources and knew very well what is my conclusion! Which I don´t and I highly doubt I will by the end of November.
I realize that writing it “my way” is wrong and not correct at all but that is how I function. Especially if I don´t want to just describe the reality but I want to actually come to some conclusion, to analyze the reality and propose some future steps. This is how I work when I actually want my work to be an asset. And she is screwing my working method (even if that one is screwed already)! If I am to write a decent introduction and formulate my hypothesis properly by the end of November, that would mean writing my entire thesis by the then! Urgh! That is not happening. And really the final, official deadline for finishing the thesis is the end of March!
So really I am at loss. I wish I could write chapter one and two instead! Anyone has any idea about whether the EU law is or is not a reason for a change in international arbitration?
Oh did I mention I am writing my thesis in English? Well really that should be ok. She doesn´t speak it so well so my version should be enough for now, and I will have it beta-ed and corrected when it is all done. I actually am happy that I will not have to translate all that stuff from English to Slovak. Still I am freaking out right now!!!
I really hope I am severely overreacting right now. I hope that once I sit down and look into it properly tomorrow morning I will see the light. Still I am completely scared of writing those 5 to 10 traitorous pages – the beginning – before I have the end. I am off to contemplate now!
And I am sorry for this useless post. I have been kind of fuzzy lately, I keep getting distracted, overlooking things, getting ahead of myself and then falling behind. I really need to get myself together. And I am off to do just that!
Oh yeah I saw some random very cool eighto scans today! Okhura was super hot. And Nakamaru´s hair is growing slowly. I think he should keep it like it is now or even shorter. In my humble opinion, it really suits him. Sorry, in the spirit of my latest failures I have no links.
Because of my tooth and some other mainly unimportant and stupid stuff I have been ignoring school for the first month of it. Now I am finally in Brno and so I e-mailed the supervisor/consultant (not sure how to call her really) for my thesis. I have to take this subject literally called "thesis seminar" this year, they don´t really teach you anything in there, it doesn´t even have classes or a schedule. In order to pass we have to fulfill the conditions given to us by our consultant. So I was like: “Sorry, I didn´t email you earlier, what do I need to do?”
Clearly I was hoping she would take it easy, she is coincidently the dean of our faculty and is really busy. I was hoping to start writing and just send her first half (or part) in January. But she wants me to do this methodically!!!
She wants me to write introduction including my premise/hypothesis divided into partial objectives and describe my work methods until the end of November ( that is in one month!). Then she wants the first chapter by the end of January. Work methods shouldn´t be a problem really, but premises, partial goals? I was kind of hoping that the intro with those could be the last thing written! I know it makes no sense, but I have no idea where this will take me. No one wrote anything close to this before and I was hoping to come up with them while I write. I mean to write the intro would mean that I have already read all of my sources and knew very well what is my conclusion! Which I don´t and I highly doubt I will by the end of November.
I realize that writing it “my way” is wrong and not correct at all but that is how I function. Especially if I don´t want to just describe the reality but I want to actually come to some conclusion, to analyze the reality and propose some future steps. This is how I work when I actually want my work to be an asset. And she is screwing my working method (even if that one is screwed already)! If I am to write a decent introduction and formulate my hypothesis properly by the end of November, that would mean writing my entire thesis by the then! Urgh! That is not happening. And really the final, official deadline for finishing the thesis is the end of March!
So really I am at loss. I wish I could write chapter one and two instead! Anyone has any idea about whether the EU law is or is not a reason for a change in international arbitration?
Oh did I mention I am writing my thesis in English? Well really that should be ok. She doesn´t speak it so well so my version should be enough for now, and I will have it beta-ed and corrected when it is all done. I actually am happy that I will not have to translate all that stuff from English to Slovak. Still I am freaking out right now!!!
I really hope I am severely overreacting right now. I hope that once I sit down and look into it properly tomorrow morning I will see the light. Still I am completely scared of writing those 5 to 10 traitorous pages – the beginning – before I have the end. I am off to contemplate now!
And I am sorry for this useless post. I have been kind of fuzzy lately, I keep getting distracted, overlooking things, getting ahead of myself and then falling behind. I really need to get myself together. And I am off to do just that!
Oh yeah I saw some random very cool eighto scans today! Okhura was super hot. And Nakamaru´s hair is growing slowly. I think he should keep it like it is now or even shorter. In my humble opinion, it really suits him. Sorry, in the spirit of my latest failures I have no links.
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Date: 2009-10-23 12:10 pm (UTC)& too bad I can't help you on anything.
Stay calm okay~ XD
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Date: 2009-10-24 12:45 am (UTC)thanks for the support anyway