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So this was supposed to be pretty freaking happy post but I should learn NOT to check my school email right after sending my work in to maintain a peace of my mind at least for couple of hours. Still I am not failing again, therefor:
The happy meme
1. Post about something that made you happy today even if it's just a small thing.
2. Do this every day for 8 days without fail.
So today ...
♥ I handed in the part of my thesis that was due. The part that I wanted to write last, though I know you are not supposed to. But I struggled and read most of the stuff for my thesis, or at least skimmed through it and today I finally sent it to my consultant. I FELT HAPPY AND ACCOMPLISHED and planned not to look at that stuff for at least a week. I felt like a rock star actually, because I have rewritten it million times. I also asked her to give me a date for a consultation
* The downside is that she replied about 20 minutes later (she must have really given a lot of thought to what I have written). The email has 4 sentences. I don´t get what she is saying in the first one, there are at least three typos in there and it looks like it misses a word, I also have no idea what she refers to. She also wants me to fix some stuff, and while I admit I understand what she wants from me and why, I think she should leave it for now and let me fix it after I write the rest. Now I will think of it all night long again and probably spent my weekend buried in all those documents AGAIN!!! Also she basically told me she has only one free slot for me in next two weeks, exactly when I have classes, mind you.
THIS IS MY HAPPY FACE! I am trying to live on the happiness of at least sending her something, but still.
♥ The presentation for one of the classes was today, so at least that teamwork nightmare is over, though I have no idea if I passed the test. How come? I can usually judge these things ...
♥ And now I will talk about the general happiness people brought me over the past few days, I lived on that today, it keeps me from falling into a very bad mood over some real shit and incompetence. Amandine linked me this, and while I don´t really get it, it´s too cute. Pix also told me to "travel safe" when I was leaving library two days ago, making me laugh so much ♥, I still grin when I think of it every time I go home from school or library (that is in the same building). It takes exactly 5 minutes by foot, clearly she couldn´t have known that, but now I imagine traveling safe, it is fun. She is also a great company these days.
♥ Lastly most of the people are great about the challenge I organize (I am ignoring the bitching). Go check it out and vote, I would love to tell you for which fic actually so you don´t need to read through all of them but I guess that would be kind of mean and possibly almost cheating, although I genuinely think that one is the best. Again thanks goes to Pix for pimping the voting!!!
I think that´s it. I was going to say something else I am sure. I also thought I would have a lazy and nice weekend in front of me, but it seems none of that is happening. It totally sucks and I just hate myself for it, because really it´s me who is doing it to myself. I can´t even blame anyone, damn it! Because it´s me who can´t put the censure my consultant voiced behind me and do it my way. I will try to fix it even though I personally think I should just leave it be and concentrate on other parts of the work, coming back to this at the end. People are able to do it, people are able to be "above" these things and they just do it their way. I was raised with too strong of a conscious, doing things how I am asked to do them when I am in a position like this (she is my consultant, the person which determines whether my work will be approved or not, it´s the authority that I unfortunately can´t ignore, end of story) I only think it is unfair she granted me only 20 minutes of peace. That is also exactly how much time she spend on the result of several weeks of my effort.
I hope all of you are having a great time!
The happy meme
1. Post about something that made you happy today even if it's just a small thing.
2. Do this every day for 8 days without fail.
So today ...
♥ I handed in the part of my thesis that was due. The part that I wanted to write last, though I know you are not supposed to. But I struggled and read most of the stuff for my thesis, or at least skimmed through it and today I finally sent it to my consultant. I FELT HAPPY AND ACCOMPLISHED and planned not to look at that stuff for at least a week. I felt like a rock star actually, because I have rewritten it million times. I also asked her to give me a date for a consultation
* The downside is that she replied about 20 minutes later (she must have really given a lot of thought to what I have written). The email has 4 sentences. I don´t get what she is saying in the first one, there are at least three typos in there and it looks like it misses a word, I also have no idea what she refers to. She also wants me to fix some stuff, and while I admit I understand what she wants from me and why, I think she should leave it for now and let me fix it after I write the rest. Now I will think of it all night long again and probably spent my weekend buried in all those documents AGAIN!!! Also she basically told me she has only one free slot for me in next two weeks, exactly when I have classes, mind you.
THIS IS MY HAPPY FACE! I am trying to live on the happiness of at least sending her something, but still.
♥ The presentation for one of the classes was today, so at least that teamwork nightmare is over, though I have no idea if I passed the test. How come? I can usually judge these things ...
♥ And now I will talk about the general happiness people brought me over the past few days, I lived on that today, it keeps me from falling into a very bad mood over some real shit and incompetence. Amandine linked me this, and while I don´t really get it, it´s too cute. Pix also told me to "travel safe" when I was leaving library two days ago, making me laugh so much ♥, I still grin when I think of it every time I go home from school or library (that is in the same building). It takes exactly 5 minutes by foot, clearly she couldn´t have known that, but now I imagine traveling safe, it is fun. She is also a great company these days.
♥ Lastly most of the people are great about the challenge I organize (I am ignoring the bitching). Go check it out and vote, I would love to tell you for which fic actually so you don´t need to read through all of them but I guess that would be kind of mean and possibly almost cheating, although I genuinely think that one is the best. Again thanks goes to Pix for pimping the voting!!!
I think that´s it. I was going to say something else I am sure. I also thought I would have a lazy and nice weekend in front of me, but it seems none of that is happening. It totally sucks and I just hate myself for it, because really it´s me who is doing it to myself. I can´t even blame anyone, damn it! Because it´s me who can´t put the censure my consultant voiced behind me and do it my way. I will try to fix it even though I personally think I should just leave it be and concentrate on other parts of the work, coming back to this at the end. People are able to do it, people are able to be "above" these things and they just do it their way. I was raised with too strong of a conscious, doing things how I am asked to do them when I am in a position like this (she is my consultant, the person which determines whether my work will be approved or not, it´s the authority that I unfortunately can´t ignore, end of story) I only think it is unfair she granted me only 20 minutes of peace. That is also exactly how much time she spend on the result of several weeks of my effort.
I hope all of you are having a great time!
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Date: 2009-12-04 08:38 pm (UTC)and I know you do, and because of that I am grinning every time I make the route, now I feel like I should get a hiking stick! ♥