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Even in the fourth round of giving out dorm rooms they still think I live too close to school to deserve a place to live. I am slowly losing my hope.
I went to see my doctor today. I fell apart there. From tomorrow on I want to be too busy to even look at what I am eating because it will only give me a headache. On the other hand I would much rather be occupied by studying than by painting three layers of paint on our well and sun beds. Also I hate hypocrites (read doctors) who don´t really listen and still think their own thing. And talk to you like you are dumb and five years old. This is my last attempt. If it doesn´t work in three weeks I am giving up and screw everyone my health including. I am saying no more.
My fan fiction fandom seems kind of dead. For good. And I can´t even make it come back to life because I seem to have blocked myself by writing my last fic and my partner in crime is too much in Arashi craze to help me out. I do not want to give up on![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
ryoda_continuum (or my delusional fandom) just yet.
On another note. I made five CDs of dance music mix yesterday because my mom wants to DANCE every morning. She was willing and so I included some arashi songs as well (very mildly) and now I am waiting for the reaction. This is the chance to make her like it or something. I also can´t stop laughing at her wanting to dance! The way she has put it: “I have decided to dance!” OMG!
The autumn this year is so pretty, sunny and warm and well I was outside a lot today so it felt really nice. I also got a massage not that any of you care. Finally! I needed it as hell. Last but not least I need someone to laugh with at one particular event that concerns my former high school classmates. Luckily it seems I might get to meet my friend suitable for this pretty soon. Wish me luck. I was quite negative lately and I will try to make my next post the optimistic usual myself. I miss it!
I went to see my doctor today. I fell apart there. From tomorrow on I want to be too busy to even look at what I am eating because it will only give me a headache. On the other hand I would much rather be occupied by studying than by painting three layers of paint on our well and sun beds. Also I hate hypocrites (read doctors) who don´t really listen and still think their own thing. And talk to you like you are dumb and five years old. This is my last attempt. If it doesn´t work in three weeks I am giving up and screw everyone my health including. I am saying no more.
My fan fiction fandom seems kind of dead. For good. And I can´t even make it come back to life because I seem to have blocked myself by writing my last fic and my partner in crime is too much in Arashi craze to help me out. I do not want to give up on
ryoda_continuum (or my delusional fandom) just yet.On another note. I made five CDs of dance music mix yesterday because my mom wants to DANCE every morning. She was willing and so I included some arashi songs as well (very mildly) and now I am waiting for the reaction. This is the chance to make her like it or something. I also can´t stop laughing at her wanting to dance! The way she has put it: “I have decided to dance!” OMG!
The autumn this year is so pretty, sunny and warm and well I was outside a lot today so it felt really nice. I also got a massage not that any of you care. Finally! I needed it as hell. Last but not least I need someone to laugh with at one particular event that concerns my former high school classmates. Luckily it seems I might get to meet my friend suitable for this pretty soon. Wish me luck. I was quite negative lately and I will try to make my next post the optimistic usual myself. I miss it!
