To stay awake ...

the { first ✚ impression } meme

I have head the most awesome 8 hours of sleep tonight. I fell asleep the moment I hit the sheets!!! I woke up and felt I could sleep through another 8 hours though, so I am proud of myself and the fact I actually did get up and went to work. I was told to try and spread my hours over at least 3 months and not come more than twice a week. The first part is exactly what I planned, the second however is not doable as I have tons of weeks I can´t come at all. But hopefully everyone else will do as said and I will have work for the next two days of this week.

I wasn´t really planning on posting today, but that meme looks fun, so I am doing it and will kill some time doing it for other people (hint, hint, try, try) it before going to sleep because I still feel totally tired. I haven´t realized how much the exam wore me down. I bought Elle today after the longest time ever. I feel like looking at some pics and adds and pretend to be girly. It had a very nice notebook (with dates and you know space for appointments and stuff) as a present and now I am torn because I like it much more than the one I got for Christmas. It´s more practical and smaller and has more space for writing. Oh the dilemma!

Right, some more linking:
Akame exchange! ROFL!!! They have kicked off at the same time as the small RyoDa Valentine´s ficolate exchange. Clearly some higher power in making. But the totally have better "naming skills" than I do. I wonder what the time line will be like. Ok, stop me before I consider signing up to finally write a proper Akame.

Hi JIN!!! *__* Don´t you ever let your hair down!!! And apparently he has written his solo for the single and his solo concert. I guess it is kind of expected, but still I approve of him actually doing it.

Also how did I miss Oghuri Shun dating Yamada Yu for almost two years now???
And I seriously hope someone subs the latest ANS. I suspect Jun was trying to think really hard how to kill someone (though I have no idea who and i want to find out). The smile is just too bright and on that I am evil and you should fear side!

It´s growing out but I still like his hair this way.

I too can be cryptic ...

Sorry for spamming when I said I would post less. Sorry if this is cryptic, it is not really meant for anyone in particular, it is just a warning for the future.




I have no idea if I come across as a nice or a mean person, if I come across as someone who argues and bickers and hurts people. I have no idea what all of you expect of me on daily basis.

To address this before it eats me alive. As much as I love you all and try to be tolerating, understanding, try not to let my own opinions, believes and standpoints get into a way of seeing yours in a neutral way, sometimes I fail.

I have days when everything piles up and I get sad, I cry and I am angry. I am a bitch on those days. Mostly I crawl under a rock and play some music, read a book, get back to normal and all is fine. But sometimes I still end up being a bitch.

If on a such a day you talk to me and we happen to disagree I will tell you. I will tell you you are making me sad, angry, mad, pissed of. I will tell you so bluntly. I will tell you not to push me and to leave it be. I will warn you about me being in a fool mood. I will ask you to just not elaborate on a subject on which we disagree. Because if you keep going I will be nasty.

Please listen to me on that day. Please tolerate my far from perfect personality and leave whatever it is we are arguing over be. On those days it´s hard to see your side of the story and my is dark and hostile. Leave it until I feel better and am ready to understand and tolerate again. Please, please, please ...

These days do not happen often and when they do they are bad. I will never tell you what to do on those days again, because I am ashamed of myself. I am nowhere near proud of myself for having to tell you today.

Please ...