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... I have however missed you all terribly.
The past week or 9 days as it is now have been the longest days of my life, or so they have felt, and even now, typing this, it is just me being impatient. It´s taking too long and I can hardly see what I am writing, but I want to give it a try.
Not that you cared that much where and why I have disappeared so abruptly (not that I can blame you), still I want to tell you. I´ve been thinking of how to for several days now (as I really had nothing better to do) and every time the entry I came up with in my head was too long. I felt like drawing a time line at one point. Sorry if this still ends up too confusing and too unimportant, what matters is that more or less I can tell which buttons of my keyboard I am pressing down.
As you probably all now (since I have been bragging about it for days and even months now) I was to undergo the laser/excimer/ whatever eye surgery to get rid of my glasses. That was to happen on 28th of January and before that I was to have a week to finish up some stuff at work and to get another chapter of my thesis done.
Last time I posted (and saw the PC screen properly, as it turned out later on) was on January 23rd, Saturday, and all seemed well and going in the right direction. I wrote some drabbles and had fun that day. I even managed to get some stuff for my thesis done. It seems like all the stress of previous exams and other matters has disappeared, slowly resolved into nothing but a good mood I had when going to bed. Only that my body might have had one too many hours of PC screen time and one too many stressful thoughts and that night, it went on strike.
On Sunday 24th I woke up and could hardly open (unglue?) my eyes. They were heavily lidded with the “nice and pleasant” side effects of raging conjunctivitis (my first ever). Let´s not even talk about thesis and work and all the things I had planned to do in the next three days. Let´s talk about the fact that I was to undergo a freaking eye surgery in four days. To be performed on eyes suffering at the time of some serious inflammation.
Or not, let´s make it short and sweet (impossible I say). On Sunday, I wrote one more drabble (and it took me all day, more or less like writing this entry) in an effort to persuade myself that all will be fine and will get better. It did not and so the next day I went to work to tell I won´t be able to finish my assignment (I want to cry) and called home and alarmed my mother who didn’t help by freaking out and went to bank and ran around Brno like a mad man (not seeing much) in an attempt to finish all that needed acute finishing.
I was home that night (as in I took a train, spend almost 3 hours travelling and my eyes were red just as Rudolf´s nose upon arriving home) and started treatment. Luckily my panicked mother is an active mother (family trait, I think XD). So she had gone and talked things over with an ophthalmologist and got me antibiotic eye drops. I didn´t look at a computer for other purposes than answering the most pressing school emails for next few days, didn´t watch TV, or read. I just existed. I baked and cooked to keep me occupied. And waited. For a verdict. It came on Thursday and it said that yes they would in fact be able to go ahead and cut and burn my eyes with laser. Ever since then, again, I just exist.
The recovery was not nicest and I am seeing even less than when I started writing this entry, so I will spare you the details. I went for a check-up yesterday though and the doctor says it was going fairly well. Meaning I wear sunglasses only outside by now ( I have never been so compelled to write a vampire au fic in my life, I mean I now know how it feel to seek the dark, the light is my enemy), I see during the day and squint against light during the night and need only a couple of “zoom ins” when checking my emails. (It is frustrating I can not just completely ignore them) Looking at a PC or TV screen hurts and I see much less when using electronics. I also am far sighted for a change, a side effect that should dissolve but for now it means that I still can´t read much.
I went for a pedicure, am going for a massage, listen to tons of Sherlock Holmes audio book (this and my cooking will appear in a separate shining post when I feel like it) and have more cooking planned. I try to ignore my panicking mode when it comes to my school obligations, and still mostly just exist. I have slept so much I feel like I won´t ever sleep again. It might sound great, but it just has been long long hours of staring at nothing, of eyes hurting, mind swirling and time between allowed eye drop applications stopping.
I seriously hope it will get better soon. I am optimistic and this is not me complaining, it is just informing you and my future self of how it felt. A book and newspapers are becoming an option slowly, though I really need to be able to use computer. I will try. In the meantime I swear at the tons of snow falling down. I do not remember a winter like this, so much snow and so cold. It´d be better if snow didn´t reflect the light so much, making everything so sharp and bright. Not to mention one of my fic challenges, coincidently the one I am running all alone, has a deadline coming up in a few days. That´s what I get for believing the doctors. They said that by Monday at latest (which was 2 days ago) I´ll be able to work, use PC and won´t hurt. Lies, lies, lies …
Oh and my sister is back home. HOORAY!!! I really do lead a nice life right now. If I ignore that little “I can´t work, read or watch any videos (or drive, excessive, swim, weld, get pregnant, …)” problem. In my opinion, my eyes need training. I can´t spoil them by not using them all the time. So I will train them, make them come back to normal by replying to all emails from now on and by slowly replying to comments that I have ignored. And maybe, just maybe, catching up on what you have been doing these past 9 days.
Or will you tell me? Or did you die of boredom reading this health report and never got this far?
The past week or 9 days as it is now have been the longest days of my life, or so they have felt, and even now, typing this, it is just me being impatient. It´s taking too long and I can hardly see what I am writing, but I want to give it a try.
Not that you cared that much where and why I have disappeared so abruptly (not that I can blame you), still I want to tell you. I´ve been thinking of how to for several days now (as I really had nothing better to do) and every time the entry I came up with in my head was too long. I felt like drawing a time line at one point. Sorry if this still ends up too confusing and too unimportant, what matters is that more or less I can tell which buttons of my keyboard I am pressing down.
As you probably all now (since I have been bragging about it for days and even months now) I was to undergo the laser/excimer/ whatever eye surgery to get rid of my glasses. That was to happen on 28th of January and before that I was to have a week to finish up some stuff at work and to get another chapter of my thesis done.
Last time I posted (and saw the PC screen properly, as it turned out later on) was on January 23rd, Saturday, and all seemed well and going in the right direction. I wrote some drabbles and had fun that day. I even managed to get some stuff for my thesis done. It seems like all the stress of previous exams and other matters has disappeared, slowly resolved into nothing but a good mood I had when going to bed. Only that my body might have had one too many hours of PC screen time and one too many stressful thoughts and that night, it went on strike.
On Sunday 24th I woke up and could hardly open (unglue?) my eyes. They were heavily lidded with the “nice and pleasant” side effects of raging conjunctivitis (my first ever). Let´s not even talk about thesis and work and all the things I had planned to do in the next three days. Let´s talk about the fact that I was to undergo a freaking eye surgery in four days. To be performed on eyes suffering at the time of some serious inflammation.
Or not, let´s make it short and sweet (impossible I say). On Sunday, I wrote one more drabble (and it took me all day, more or less like writing this entry) in an effort to persuade myself that all will be fine and will get better. It did not and so the next day I went to work to tell I won´t be able to finish my assignment (I want to cry) and called home and alarmed my mother who didn’t help by freaking out and went to bank and ran around Brno like a mad man (not seeing much) in an attempt to finish all that needed acute finishing.
I was home that night (as in I took a train, spend almost 3 hours travelling and my eyes were red just as Rudolf´s nose upon arriving home) and started treatment. Luckily my panicked mother is an active mother (family trait, I think XD). So she had gone and talked things over with an ophthalmologist and got me antibiotic eye drops. I didn´t look at a computer for other purposes than answering the most pressing school emails for next few days, didn´t watch TV, or read. I just existed. I baked and cooked to keep me occupied. And waited. For a verdict. It came on Thursday and it said that yes they would in fact be able to go ahead and cut and burn my eyes with laser. Ever since then, again, I just exist.
The recovery was not nicest and I am seeing even less than when I started writing this entry, so I will spare you the details. I went for a check-up yesterday though and the doctor says it was going fairly well. Meaning I wear sunglasses only outside by now ( I have never been so compelled to write a vampire au fic in my life, I mean I now know how it feel to seek the dark, the light is my enemy), I see during the day and squint against light during the night and need only a couple of “zoom ins” when checking my emails. (It is frustrating I can not just completely ignore them) Looking at a PC or TV screen hurts and I see much less when using electronics. I also am far sighted for a change, a side effect that should dissolve but for now it means that I still can´t read much.
I went for a pedicure, am going for a massage, listen to tons of Sherlock Holmes audio book (this and my cooking will appear in a separate shining post when I feel like it) and have more cooking planned. I try to ignore my panicking mode when it comes to my school obligations, and still mostly just exist. I have slept so much I feel like I won´t ever sleep again. It might sound great, but it just has been long long hours of staring at nothing, of eyes hurting, mind swirling and time between allowed eye drop applications stopping.
I seriously hope it will get better soon. I am optimistic and this is not me complaining, it is just informing you and my future self of how it felt. A book and newspapers are becoming an option slowly, though I really need to be able to use computer. I will try. In the meantime I swear at the tons of snow falling down. I do not remember a winter like this, so much snow and so cold. It´d be better if snow didn´t reflect the light so much, making everything so sharp and bright. Not to mention one of my fic challenges, coincidently the one I am running all alone, has a deadline coming up in a few days. That´s what I get for believing the doctors. They said that by Monday at latest (which was 2 days ago) I´ll be able to work, use PC and won´t hurt. Lies, lies, lies …
Oh and my sister is back home. HOORAY!!! I really do lead a nice life right now. If I ignore that little “I can´t work, read or watch any videos (or drive, excessive, swim, weld, get pregnant, …)” problem. In my opinion, my eyes need training. I can´t spoil them by not using them all the time. So I will train them, make them come back to normal by replying to all emails from now on and by slowly replying to comments that I have ignored. And maybe, just maybe, catching up on what you have been doing these past 9 days.
Or will you tell me? Or did you die of boredom reading this health report and never got this far?
