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... I have however missed you all terribly.
The past week or 9 days as it is now have been the longest days of my life, or so they have felt, and even now, typing this, it is just me being impatient. It´s taking too long and I can hardly see what I am writing, but I want to give it a try.
Not that you cared that much where and why I have disappeared so abruptly (not that I can blame you), still I want to tell you. I´ve been thinking of how to for several days now (as I really had nothing better to do) and every time the entry I came up with in my head was too long. I felt like drawing a time line at one point. Sorry if this still ends up too confusing and too unimportant, what matters is that more or less I can tell which buttons of my keyboard I am pressing down.
As you probably all now (since I have been bragging about it for days and even months now) I was to undergo the laser/excimer/ whatever eye surgery to get rid of my glasses. That was to happen on 28th of January and before that I was to have a week to finish up some stuff at work and to get another chapter of my thesis done.
Last time I posted (and saw the PC screen properly, as it turned out later on) was on January 23rd, Saturday, and all seemed well and going in the right direction. I wrote some drabbles and had fun that day. I even managed to get some stuff for my thesis done. It seems like all the stress of previous exams and other matters has disappeared, slowly resolved into nothing but a good mood I had when going to bed. Only that my body might have had one too many hours of PC screen time and one too many stressful thoughts and that night, it went on strike.
On Sunday 24th I woke up and could hardly open (unglue?) my eyes. They were heavily lidded with the “nice and pleasant” side effects of raging conjunctivitis (my first ever). Let´s not even talk about thesis and work and all the things I had planned to do in the next three days. Let´s talk about the fact that I was to undergo a freaking eye surgery in four days. To be performed on eyes suffering at the time of some serious inflammation.
Or not, let´s make it short and sweet (impossible I say). On Sunday, I wrote one more drabble (and it took me all day, more or less like writing this entry) in an effort to persuade myself that all will be fine and will get better. It did not and so the next day I went to work to tell I won´t be able to finish my assignment (I want to cry) and called home and alarmed my mother who didn’t help by freaking out and went to bank and ran around Brno like a mad man (not seeing much) in an attempt to finish all that needed acute finishing.
I was home that night (as in I took a train, spend almost 3 hours travelling and my eyes were red just as Rudolf´s nose upon arriving home) and started treatment. Luckily my panicked mother is an active mother (family trait, I think XD). So she had gone and talked things over with an ophthalmologist and got me antibiotic eye drops. I didn´t look at a computer for other purposes than answering the most pressing school emails for next few days, didn´t watch TV, or read. I just existed. I baked and cooked to keep me occupied. And waited. For a verdict. It came on Thursday and it said that yes they would in fact be able to go ahead and cut and burn my eyes with laser. Ever since then, again, I just exist.
The recovery was not nicest and I am seeing even less than when I started writing this entry, so I will spare you the details. I went for a check-up yesterday though and the doctor says it was going fairly well. Meaning I wear sunglasses only outside by now ( I have never been so compelled to write a vampire au fic in my life, I mean I now know how it feel to seek the dark, the light is my enemy), I see during the day and squint against light during the night and need only a couple of “zoom ins” when checking my emails. (It is frustrating I can not just completely ignore them) Looking at a PC or TV screen hurts and I see much less when using electronics. I also am far sighted for a change, a side effect that should dissolve but for now it means that I still can´t read much.
I went for a pedicure, am going for a massage, listen to tons of Sherlock Holmes audio book (this and my cooking will appear in a separate shining post when I feel like it) and have more cooking planned. I try to ignore my panicking mode when it comes to my school obligations, and still mostly just exist. I have slept so much I feel like I won´t ever sleep again. It might sound great, but it just has been long long hours of staring at nothing, of eyes hurting, mind swirling and time between allowed eye drop applications stopping.
I seriously hope it will get better soon. I am optimistic and this is not me complaining, it is just informing you and my future self of how it felt. A book and newspapers are becoming an option slowly, though I really need to be able to use computer. I will try. In the meantime I swear at the tons of snow falling down. I do not remember a winter like this, so much snow and so cold. It´d be better if snow didn´t reflect the light so much, making everything so sharp and bright. Not to mention one of my fic challenges, coincidently the one I am running all alone, has a deadline coming up in a few days. That´s what I get for believing the doctors. They said that by Monday at latest (which was 2 days ago) I´ll be able to work, use PC and won´t hurt. Lies, lies, lies …
Oh and my sister is back home. HOORAY!!! I really do lead a nice life right now. If I ignore that little “I can´t work, read or watch any videos (or drive, excessive, swim, weld, get pregnant, …)” problem. In my opinion, my eyes need training. I can´t spoil them by not using them all the time. So I will train them, make them come back to normal by replying to all emails from now on and by slowly replying to comments that I have ignored. And maybe, just maybe, catching up on what you have been doing these past 9 days.
Or will you tell me? Or did you die of boredom reading this health report and never got this far?
The past week or 9 days as it is now have been the longest days of my life, or so they have felt, and even now, typing this, it is just me being impatient. It´s taking too long and I can hardly see what I am writing, but I want to give it a try.
Not that you cared that much where and why I have disappeared so abruptly (not that I can blame you), still I want to tell you. I´ve been thinking of how to for several days now (as I really had nothing better to do) and every time the entry I came up with in my head was too long. I felt like drawing a time line at one point. Sorry if this still ends up too confusing and too unimportant, what matters is that more or less I can tell which buttons of my keyboard I am pressing down.
As you probably all now (since I have been bragging about it for days and even months now) I was to undergo the laser/excimer/ whatever eye surgery to get rid of my glasses. That was to happen on 28th of January and before that I was to have a week to finish up some stuff at work and to get another chapter of my thesis done.
Last time I posted (and saw the PC screen properly, as it turned out later on) was on January 23rd, Saturday, and all seemed well and going in the right direction. I wrote some drabbles and had fun that day. I even managed to get some stuff for my thesis done. It seems like all the stress of previous exams and other matters has disappeared, slowly resolved into nothing but a good mood I had when going to bed. Only that my body might have had one too many hours of PC screen time and one too many stressful thoughts and that night, it went on strike.
On Sunday 24th I woke up and could hardly open (unglue?) my eyes. They were heavily lidded with the “nice and pleasant” side effects of raging conjunctivitis (my first ever). Let´s not even talk about thesis and work and all the things I had planned to do in the next three days. Let´s talk about the fact that I was to undergo a freaking eye surgery in four days. To be performed on eyes suffering at the time of some serious inflammation.
Or not, let´s make it short and sweet (impossible I say). On Sunday, I wrote one more drabble (and it took me all day, more or less like writing this entry) in an effort to persuade myself that all will be fine and will get better. It did not and so the next day I went to work to tell I won´t be able to finish my assignment (I want to cry) and called home and alarmed my mother who didn’t help by freaking out and went to bank and ran around Brno like a mad man (not seeing much) in an attempt to finish all that needed acute finishing.
I was home that night (as in I took a train, spend almost 3 hours travelling and my eyes were red just as Rudolf´s nose upon arriving home) and started treatment. Luckily my panicked mother is an active mother (family trait, I think XD). So she had gone and talked things over with an ophthalmologist and got me antibiotic eye drops. I didn´t look at a computer for other purposes than answering the most pressing school emails for next few days, didn´t watch TV, or read. I just existed. I baked and cooked to keep me occupied. And waited. For a verdict. It came on Thursday and it said that yes they would in fact be able to go ahead and cut and burn my eyes with laser. Ever since then, again, I just exist.
The recovery was not nicest and I am seeing even less than when I started writing this entry, so I will spare you the details. I went for a check-up yesterday though and the doctor says it was going fairly well. Meaning I wear sunglasses only outside by now ( I have never been so compelled to write a vampire au fic in my life, I mean I now know how it feel to seek the dark, the light is my enemy), I see during the day and squint against light during the night and need only a couple of “zoom ins” when checking my emails. (It is frustrating I can not just completely ignore them) Looking at a PC or TV screen hurts and I see much less when using electronics. I also am far sighted for a change, a side effect that should dissolve but for now it means that I still can´t read much.
I went for a pedicure, am going for a massage, listen to tons of Sherlock Holmes audio book (this and my cooking will appear in a separate shining post when I feel like it) and have more cooking planned. I try to ignore my panicking mode when it comes to my school obligations, and still mostly just exist. I have slept so much I feel like I won´t ever sleep again. It might sound great, but it just has been long long hours of staring at nothing, of eyes hurting, mind swirling and time between allowed eye drop applications stopping.
I seriously hope it will get better soon. I am optimistic and this is not me complaining, it is just informing you and my future self of how it felt. A book and newspapers are becoming an option slowly, though I really need to be able to use computer. I will try. In the meantime I swear at the tons of snow falling down. I do not remember a winter like this, so much snow and so cold. It´d be better if snow didn´t reflect the light so much, making everything so sharp and bright. Not to mention one of my fic challenges, coincidently the one I am running all alone, has a deadline coming up in a few days. That´s what I get for believing the doctors. They said that by Monday at latest (which was 2 days ago) I´ll be able to work, use PC and won´t hurt. Lies, lies, lies …
Oh and my sister is back home. HOORAY!!! I really do lead a nice life right now. If I ignore that little “I can´t work, read or watch any videos (or drive, excessive, swim, weld, get pregnant, …)” problem. In my opinion, my eyes need training. I can´t spoil them by not using them all the time. So I will train them, make them come back to normal by replying to all emails from now on and by slowly replying to comments that I have ignored. And maybe, just maybe, catching up on what you have been doing these past 9 days.
Or will you tell me? Or did you die of boredom reading this health report and never got this far?
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Date: 2010-02-03 09:22 pm (UTC)Let me read now!
DONE!
Wah you wrote that alright!
I missed YOU
I missed YOU
I missed YOU
I missed YOU
I missed YOU
I missed YOU
I missed YOU
Why do you say that we don't care or else, since the closest knew about your eye surgery and many knew about it because you talked about it many times!!!
Don't say we don't care!
Yes you didn't warn us before leaving but it's okay really, LJ has been weird lately anyway and many didn't update on their lives, but you had the surgery! Plus yeah the thesis, and work. Totally understandable!
It came on Thursday and it said that yes they would in fact be able to go ahead and cut and burn my eyes with laser
you really sound angsty here you know that? And I know you were scared of that surgery I can feel it here more.
Vampire Alex? Vampire Alex as an OC in a fiction??? XDDD
Yeah I remember you said the doctors told you you'd be able to work alright after a few days, and yes there's that fic challenge you made...I hope you won't stress too much over it and that you don't squint too much and maybe "zoom-in" more like Ninka said to me...
[...](or drive, excessive, swim, weld, get pregnant, …)”
ROFL~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Hmm you could try read my recent posts if you want, only going out, shopping, spending money on clothes and not only food for once...
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Date: 2010-02-04 06:45 pm (UTC), but ...
I did not wanted to sound accusing about not caring, I just meant I know you all had many on your plates as well. I also didn´t want to disappear without warning, but because I got sick before the surgery it could not be helped.
I have skimmed through your post, I see you had some time off and even went to see a bit of "tourist sights" between your shopping, it all sounded like fun! I am just still kind of careful with PC time, that´s why I asked XD
But it is good to be back!
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Date: 2010-02-03 10:14 pm (UTC)I totally laughed my ass off on this XD
and omfg I don´t understand how you all can be so happy I am home...you are weird!!! XD
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Date: 2010-02-04 06:46 pm (UTC)and after today, are you still confused as to why I am glad to have you "back?"
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Date: 2010-02-03 11:49 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-04 06:50 pm (UTC)Vampire AU is not really my thing a all, that is why I find it so amusing I feel urges to write one ;D
Thanks for the offer, I was asked to provide a beta today actually, so maybe, maybe I might actually take you up on the offer. I´ll see ... Would you mind? IDK how long it is yet, so it is nothing tangible yet ...
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Date: 2010-02-04 09:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-04 01:00 am (UTC)i missed you, i hope you are well enough to *see* me soon. ♥
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Date: 2010-02-04 06:52 pm (UTC)And I do hope so as well to get back on track soon, so I can "see" and talk and flail and spoil away with you <3
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Date: 2010-02-04 03:57 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-04 06:54 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-04 04:52 am (UTC)The way you describe how red your eyes were ;__; I really hope you are okay and will recover fully soon. Take your time training your eyes.
side note: vampire fic XD
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Date: 2010-02-04 06:55 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-04 11:20 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-04 06:56 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-04 01:20 pm (UTC)I won't leave a long comment, because I'm sure it's hard enough for you to read them all so far without me adding to the list, so just.. I hope you get well soon, ne ♥
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Date: 2010-02-04 06:57 pm (UTC)I will get better soon, I believe and I hoe you get your eye check up soon, as I´ve seen you talking about it today, when reading through my fpage!!! Take care of those two holes in your head, they are precious!
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Date: 2010-02-04 05:26 pm (UTC)::hugs:: I really really hope you start feeling better soon!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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Date: 2010-02-04 07:01 pm (UTC)♥
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Date: 2010-02-06 01:06 pm (UTC)Yet.
I knew something about your surgery coming, but I didn't know the date or what,...
Despite your current handicap, you wrote it very well, and I am glad to hear you will be okay.. So .. hold on.
And don't overdo it~
In a very small part, I can sympathize with you, because neither I cannot see what I am writing at the momnet.. but that is because of my retarded PC. lol.