My brain is too slow for my liking
Feb. 10th, 2010 06:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
higure
If there ever was a proof of Ueda Tatsuya never really stepping down from his position as a leader of KAT-TUN, or returning to it or whatever, then this would be it:
KAT-TUN, Ueda Tatsuya
To everyone in SMAP. Thank you very much for taking care of us the other day. I learned afresh how great the sempai are. If we ever get to be there again, please take care of us again. Nakai-kun... I think it's time you learn my name please (laughs).
Translation by![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
enshinge, can be found here.
I mean, he thanks SMAP on behalf of KAT-TUN, if I take the translation to be accurate and believe he used “us”. <3 And then he asks Nakai to learn his name. LMAO
I have finally figured out why my eye sight and eye condition deteriorated so much yesterday and why it has not been fixed during the night. I had gone for another check-up yesterday and they measured my eye pressure (idk if that´s how you say it in English), which basically means they have blown puffs of air into my eyes. They have also made me look into all kinds of bright light, including this funky blue. Even when my eyes were healthy and they did the same during pre-surgery check-up, my eyes were irritated for few days, and they had not been scarred by laser at the time.
Mystery SOLVED!!! This actually is great news, because I was getting nervous over the development, now I know it is nothing to be worried about.
I have also come back to Brno yesterday and spent my day today going through a year´s worth of magazine articles in all the Czech legal periodics that could have published something in relation to my thesis over the time. Which meant taking every single one of them into my hands and checking the list of content. At least I didn´t use computer much. But, hello, no classification! Anyway the result is one and a half of an article, if you were wondering.
I have however met several of my friends who are PhD students by now (:O why so many of them?) and had some testing today at school. It was a complete coincidence but I feel so refreshed because I talked to, you know, people with similar interest and of similar age and state of mind, after being deprived of that luxury (in person) for over three weeks now. *__*
I am going to do a meme now that I have been tagged to do ages ago bychivakaza. The one about listing seven quirks or information about me.
List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
I am not tagging anyone, since it feel like everyone has done this anyway. If you feel like doing this (again), be my guest!
1. I went to Christian (catholic to be exact) school through ages 10 to 18. It has shielded me from some serious mocking about my weight or other imperfections, for which I am eternally grateful, because, especially, at the age of 10 I was taking it badly. It has however taught me how to talk about sex in cryptic language as well. People there might have been nicer at the time, may have had a bit politer upraising, still we were only teenagers. Catholic schools here are not paid as e.g. in US, it was not a snobby institution or anything, still sometimes it felt like we were special, because of above mentioned “niceness”. I am very fond of those years even if the school has gone downhill since then and I had two extra religion lessons per week.
2. I iron almost everything but socks, towels and silky underwear. Yes, that means I do iron cotton underwear or sheets as well. All my t-shirts, pyjamas, everything. It was one of the biggest cultural shocks when I was in US that my “first” family didn´t have a proper iron. I was lost. LMAO good all times …
3. Hmmm … I use tons of … in my writing and like “coupling” adjectives or expressions of descriptions. I hate it when there is only one of it; it feels half-assed and incomplete if it is me who have written it.
4. I am not a person to ask for favourites. I have too hard of a time to decide, it changes too much and I can´t be bothered enough to pick one. This applies to JE boys, food, drinks, usually books or movies, mostly everything. I have my likes and dislikes but asking me for no. 1 usually means giving me the hardest question possible.
5. I have always been what the present time society calls fat. Is this a quirk or a habit? Ok, I will stop being silly. But just know this all is being sad in good spirit and with no bitterness or hurt feelings. The first time someone tried to purposely make me lose weight was when I was six. I spent six weeks in the middle of nowhere in some camp. It is a reason why I write number eight in an incorrect way. Ever since then it is an endless struggle currently being solved by yet another diet (have you seen those cakes I have baked recently, totally forbidden ;D) and pills. Prescribed by my general doctor, who has noticed (after me being her patient for 5 years) that I am overweighted (seriously). I have also always been the fastest long distance runner in my class, have always done some sport, from tennis to handball and was always in shape. The quirk and habit in relation to this might be that in rl I tend to make (bad) jokes about my own weight, my ass big as a sea chest and I mock other curvy parts of my body. In teenage years, it prevented other people from mocking me, it stops being interesting when the person in question does it herself, now it is an inside joke with my good friends. Hmmm long and pointless much?
6. Quirks, quirks, I am quite “conservative” when it comes to clothing, especially colours. No more than two or three at the time, no huge “Hawaiian” patterns or such. I do, however, love buttons of any size, shape and colour and when a shirt, coat, t-shirt or some other piece of clothing has them even slightly remarkable I am sold.
7. I have a habit of often touching or rubbing my eyes. My glasses tended to be always dirty because of it since I used to frequently stick my fingers underneath them and my eye make-up smeared the moment I put it on. Which is why I wear very little of it. Only a waterproof eye-liner (if any) and waterproof mascara. If you see me with eye shadows on, now that must be some huge occasion happening once in a century.
ROFL random much? I think I just used and abused that meme to give you some information I might have been or might in the future refer to and it could come handy for you to know.
Also this meme has been going around and I played here, got a great Pin “spirit” snippet with a twist (and parentheses) out of it, so I feel like reposting. Try me, I am not guaranteeing any clever though.
1. Find a title.
Any title, be it hauntingly, lyrically beautiful, irresistibly quirky or awe-inspiringly insipid.
2. Share it!
Leave the title in the comments.
3. Let me find the story your title should have.
I'll tell you a little bit about the story that I feel fits your title (which may or may not be the story I would have written for the title in question).
4. If you want, post this in your own LJ.
Find stories for other people's titles!
Also let me rant. I feel like never organizing anything for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
ryoda_love again at the moment. I find it very hard to tolerate certain behaviour these days and I keep telling myself to breathe slowly and properly almost every time I receive an e-mail in relation to the Ficolate exchange. By now, I am sure my lungs capacity has increased and my ability to take deep breaths has become much better. I tell you, it is good breathing exercise. No seriously, sorry for being kind of mean and not specific, but I think, with the nervous and insecure state of my mind and eyes, I have become impatient. It is only my own fault, I am sure. I need to find my inner Zen. Any ideas?
KAT-TUN, Ueda Tatsuya
To everyone in SMAP. Thank you very much for taking care of us the other day. I learned afresh how great the sempai are. If we ever get to be there again, please take care of us again. Nakai-kun... I think it's time you learn my name please (laughs).
Translation by
enshinge, can be found here.I mean, he thanks SMAP on behalf of KAT-TUN, if I take the translation to be accurate and believe he used “us”. <3 And then he asks Nakai to learn his name. LMAO
I have finally figured out why my eye sight and eye condition deteriorated so much yesterday and why it has not been fixed during the night. I had gone for another check-up yesterday and they measured my eye pressure (idk if that´s how you say it in English), which basically means they have blown puffs of air into my eyes. They have also made me look into all kinds of bright light, including this funky blue. Even when my eyes were healthy and they did the same during pre-surgery check-up, my eyes were irritated for few days, and they had not been scarred by laser at the time.
Mystery SOLVED!!! This actually is great news, because I was getting nervous over the development, now I know it is nothing to be worried about.
I have also come back to Brno yesterday and spent my day today going through a year´s worth of magazine articles in all the Czech legal periodics that could have published something in relation to my thesis over the time. Which meant taking every single one of them into my hands and checking the list of content. At least I didn´t use computer much. But, hello, no classification! Anyway the result is one and a half of an article, if you were wondering.
I have however met several of my friends who are PhD students by now (:O why so many of them?) and had some testing today at school. It was a complete coincidence but I feel so refreshed because I talked to, you know, people with similar interest and of similar age and state of mind, after being deprived of that luxury (in person) for over three weeks now. *__*
I am going to do a meme now that I have been tagged to do ages ago by
chivakaza. The one about listing seven quirks or information about me.List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
I am not tagging anyone, since it feel like everyone has done this anyway. If you feel like doing this (again), be my guest!
1. I went to Christian (catholic to be exact) school through ages 10 to 18. It has shielded me from some serious mocking about my weight or other imperfections, for which I am eternally grateful, because, especially, at the age of 10 I was taking it badly. It has however taught me how to talk about sex in cryptic language as well. People there might have been nicer at the time, may have had a bit politer upraising, still we were only teenagers. Catholic schools here are not paid as e.g. in US, it was not a snobby institution or anything, still sometimes it felt like we were special, because of above mentioned “niceness”. I am very fond of those years even if the school has gone downhill since then and I had two extra religion lessons per week.
2. I iron almost everything but socks, towels and silky underwear. Yes, that means I do iron cotton underwear or sheets as well. All my t-shirts, pyjamas, everything. It was one of the biggest cultural shocks when I was in US that my “first” family didn´t have a proper iron. I was lost. LMAO good all times …
3. Hmmm … I use tons of … in my writing and like “coupling” adjectives or expressions of descriptions. I hate it when there is only one of it; it feels half-assed and incomplete if it is me who have written it.
4. I am not a person to ask for favourites. I have too hard of a time to decide, it changes too much and I can´t be bothered enough to pick one. This applies to JE boys, food, drinks, usually books or movies, mostly everything. I have my likes and dislikes but asking me for no. 1 usually means giving me the hardest question possible.
5. I have always been what the present time society calls fat. Is this a quirk or a habit? Ok, I will stop being silly. But just know this all is being sad in good spirit and with no bitterness or hurt feelings. The first time someone tried to purposely make me lose weight was when I was six. I spent six weeks in the middle of nowhere in some camp. It is a reason why I write number eight in an incorrect way. Ever since then it is an endless struggle currently being solved by yet another diet (have you seen those cakes I have baked recently, totally forbidden ;D) and pills. Prescribed by my general doctor, who has noticed (after me being her patient for 5 years) that I am overweighted (seriously). I have also always been the fastest long distance runner in my class, have always done some sport, from tennis to handball and was always in shape. The quirk and habit in relation to this might be that in rl I tend to make (bad) jokes about my own weight, my ass big as a sea chest and I mock other curvy parts of my body. In teenage years, it prevented other people from mocking me, it stops being interesting when the person in question does it herself, now it is an inside joke with my good friends. Hmmm long and pointless much?
6. Quirks, quirks, I am quite “conservative” when it comes to clothing, especially colours. No more than two or three at the time, no huge “Hawaiian” patterns or such. I do, however, love buttons of any size, shape and colour and when a shirt, coat, t-shirt or some other piece of clothing has them even slightly remarkable I am sold.
7. I have a habit of often touching or rubbing my eyes. My glasses tended to be always dirty because of it since I used to frequently stick my fingers underneath them and my eye make-up smeared the moment I put it on. Which is why I wear very little of it. Only a waterproof eye-liner (if any) and waterproof mascara. If you see me with eye shadows on, now that must be some huge occasion happening once in a century.
ROFL random much? I think I just used and abused that meme to give you some information I might have been or might in the future refer to and it could come handy for you to know.
Also this meme has been going around and I played here, got a great Pin “spirit” snippet with a twist (and parentheses) out of it, so I feel like reposting. Try me, I am not guaranteeing any clever though.
1. Find a title.
Any title, be it hauntingly, lyrically beautiful, irresistibly quirky or awe-inspiringly insipid.
2. Share it!
Leave the title in the comments.
3. Let me find the story your title should have.
I'll tell you a little bit about the story that I feel fits your title (which may or may not be the story I would have written for the title in question).
4. If you want, post this in your own LJ.
Find stories for other people's titles!
Also let me rant. I feel like never organizing anything for
ryoda_love again at the moment. I find it very hard to tolerate certain behaviour these days and I keep telling myself to breathe slowly and properly almost every time I receive an e-mail in relation to the Ficolate exchange. By now, I am sure my lungs capacity has increased and my ability to take deep breaths has become much better. I tell you, it is good breathing exercise. No seriously, sorry for being kind of mean and not specific, but I think, with the nervous and insecure state of my mind and eyes, I have become impatient. It is only my own fault, I am sure. I need to find my inner Zen. Any ideas?
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Date: 2010-02-10 07:16 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-10 07:20 pm (UTC)Ueda does seem to have his moments XDDDD
♥
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Date: 2010-02-10 07:23 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-10 09:41 pm (UTC)I have long struggled with my weight. I still do. I struggle with feelings of wanting to be thinner and the lack of motivation to seriously stick to any sort of plan anything to bring that about. I wonder if I will ever be thin. I suspect not. I'm more concerned with making sure I am happy. Also elusive, but requires fewer diet pills. . . I think.
My advice to you on finding your inner Zen is to find something quiet you like to do that has nothing to do with your computer or fandom and do it everyday for a while until you find your perspective shifting toward yourself and away from the things that are bothering you. Not that you should stop participating in fandom; it just helps to gain perspective.
For a title. . .I will go with:
Whispering Pines
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Date: 2010-02-11 06:59 pm (UTC)As for the weight issues, it´s complicated and I didn´t really want to spur a discussion. I just will say that I would have never started medicating myself on my own and I was shocked actually when a proper physician suggested it. Oh well ... It´s not like the aspects of our lives are separated into columns and unconnected, happiness, contentment with your body, your surrounding, expectation of society or your employer. OK I REALLY DO NOT WANT TO go into this, it was a fun fact, take it that way pls.
For zen, the eye surgery has robbed me, though temporarily, of many of these little things. I can´t resist writing, but other than that I do not follow fandom that much. Unfortunately reading - my all time favourite relax method - means extra strain for the eyes, I can´t go for a swim or to a gym (only few more days on this one though) so that is why I am a bit listless. I could continue ... it just gets a bit frustrating, that´s all.
Which brings me to the fact that the listless nature of my mood might show in the story to your title. But I thought of Shige, so Shige you get:
Shige knows, somewhere deep down, that no matter what he does his photos won´t be taken seriously. Just another caprice of yet another idol. Something to talk about in numerous magazines, something to present to the fans who will adore it no matter what. By the professionals, he is looked at with a frown. When he asks a question, he is often given a cold shoulder and shown a raised eyebrow with no shame.
But today, none of it matters. He is sitting on the cold and moist ground, head and camera turned upwards, a finger trembling on the trigger. The light´s perfect, the green is as clear, as alluring, as it can get. The shadow playing with the brown of many branches and slim tall trunks is inviting. All of it is calling out to Shige who wishes for the morning to never end, for the sun to never move even a little ,or, to be exact, he wants the earth to stop turning around. Just so he can capture this moment, hide and conceal it and never let it go.
The world doesn´t wait for Shige, the globe keeps spinning, and people keep snickering behind his back, keep dismissing his efforts. But as long as the pines in this magical spot keep talking to him, keep showing him the magic of the moment lost and the moment born out of the ashes of a second that has died, he keeps holding on to the trigger. He keeps a firm grasp on one of his many dreams. Somewhere, sometimes, the whisper of his muse will be heard without prejudice and with respect for the beauty of its words.
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Date: 2010-02-11 07:07 pm (UTC)Also, I hope that your eyes feel better soon. I hate to think you being robbed of the things that make you happy for an extended period of time.
I will of course never ever object to Shige. This story is lovely.
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Date: 2010-02-11 07:13 pm (UTC)My eyes, it´s just standard surgery recovery and it´s limitation. Even if it is eye, it still is a normal scar. Public swimming pools or swimming pools in general are a no no for I think 3 month because of possible infection. As for standard gym and exercising and you know straining myself, the doctor said two weeks or so, so I should be ok next week. It´s nothing to be sorry about, it was my decision after all. I am a whiner ;D
and I am glad that Shige was welcome.
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Date: 2010-02-11 08:29 pm (UTC)Shige is always welcome. Plus, I like how you write him. You generally get the quiet determination of his personality into your fics and that's something I really like about both him and you.
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Date: 2010-02-11 08:50 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-10 10:05 pm (UTC)That is not so much what I thought yesterday when the chat came from you as "I just like coupling"! Speaking of which, I see you talked about adjectives here too. XD
I totally get where you’re coming from with the favorites thing.
Title: The Moon That Illuminates You
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Date: 2010-02-11 07:05 pm (UTC)The Moon That Illuminates You
I have seen many faces of Nishikido Ryo. The one he shows in front of camera when he is asked to seduce is almost boring by now. There are also many faces he creates, many emotions he expresses, when a movie or a drama is shot. I am always impressed by the hard face he shows when protecting his bandmates, his friends, his little world. There is only a slight difference in the harshness of his look when he faces those bandmates, friends or his own beliefs and scolds them. Tough love is what I see and what makes the difference. I have seen the shy glances when a person he likes is around and I have seen the wide smile that brightens his eyes when he is happy. I have seen many faces of one Nishikido Ryo and I have always thought that I knew it all. I was sure that there was nothing he was hiding from me.
When I saw Ryo looking at the bright red moon for the first time, it was shocking. It wasn´t the orange tint of his skin, the result of that bizarre light, that had astounded me. And I have always known he does enjoy lonely nights spent in sky adoration. No, it wasn´t the moon´s effects on his looks that had had me almost petrified.
These days, I want the moon to come it´s full circle faster. On those nights when it shows off its beauty I watch Nishikido Ryo watch the moon. It´s not the light that makes the sight addictive. It´s the deep sense of calm and the dream shining from his profile that makes it alluring. It´s the longing and the strong will Ryo shows on those nights that forces me to follow every time I can. It´s the side that no one is allowed to see, and that I steal from him, that keeps me rooted to my spot. I have seen many faces of Nishikido Ryo, still the moon reveals a new one every time it reaches his smooth skin and silky hair.
(this is obviously a mess grammatically, I had no strength to fix it @__@ also sorry about the first person, no idea when that came from. It is also strange ... Right I should not be writing commentary on these ...)
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Date: 2010-02-11 08:54 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-11 09:12 pm (UTC)And I KNOW where the first person came from. I have listened to tons of Sherlock Holmes stories over my "recovery" period as I call it. Now I think about it, they are all written from Watson´s perspective. In first person ...
rofl oh well it´s just a snippet anyway
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Date: 2010-02-10 10:25 pm (UTC)I'm glad there is an explanation for your eyes. I find the most terrifying thing about being ill or injured is when you don't know how or why or what to expect.
I am with Brina on this one, I've had weight issues for quite a while and I have I guess finally just managed to start coming to peace with being who I am and being happy with that.
Modding... hmmmm. I feel like I should have some amazing and helpful advice to make your life easier but I don't really... just that people will inevitably be big procrastinators and it totally helps to whine to people and I will happily volunteer my services!
Oh man, I just love this title meme... my title for you is:
The Total of Our Longings
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Date: 2010-02-11 07:08 pm (UTC)I am sorry if the result of this meme is disappointing ...
The Total of Our Longings
Amount of freckles on your nose and on my cheeks. The total of your blond hair, the color fading under the strong sun, and the sum of blisters on the soles of my feet, sand being too hot when I bore my way through it. The shy love bite behind your ear and deep scratch of your nails on my back. When I add them all, multiply by the years that have gone by since I last saw them and divide by the hurt that you felt when I couldn´t see them, that´s when I finally express al that desire in something tangible. In a number written in the deep snow that has covered the ground on the last day of yet another year.
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Date: 2010-02-11 07:32 pm (UTC)Thank you! ♥
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Date: 2010-02-11 09:22 pm (UTC)still thanks <3
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Date: 2010-02-11 02:14 am (UTC)Please keep on updating about them!
Second, well the meme. Isn't that the one with 7 weird facts? Because I had done one called like that, maybe it got renamed or it's another one. Not sure...
1.hmm I'm not into religion but I know for a fact that it can help you, when you're in a community, go through things inside you a better way. I mean it can really help you think things over.
I wish I had something like that because I've always been depressed about my weight.
2.........cute? XP
4. I hear you. I hate when people ask what's your favorite thing in this or that category. It sucks, you know on profiles? Like your fave movie and fave music? You can't say! Too many choices!!!!
5.Same here..*sweats*
What about the number 8? I don't get it.
It's odd though, being fat like you say, doing some sport even. Okay not weird but rather good actually, too bad I didn't like sport, or someone didn't make me like sport. Cause even if you're fat but in good shape, it should balance right?
Didn't work for me, your solution. People tend to always say the same thing, generation to generation, to mock yourself first before someone does. I've always had people mocking me even after I did. Ah but that's another story, and your post and your facts here. Sorry!
6.Well, not everyone's a YASUDA!
7. I hear you glasses-girl! but now with your eye surgery done, you'll be able to put more make up!
For that other meme...I'm sorry, I'm a no-brainer.
And for the rest...I don't know much about Zen, I'm always stressed but for the depressing thing, I'm not sure what's into you.
Hm...Exerxise? As in...something you can do alright with your eyes still adjusting, to release stress?
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Date: 2010-02-11 07:16 pm (UTC)As for make-up. I don´t think so, I still touch my eyes and it would still got smudged around my eyes ;D
exercise is not allowed at the moment but I am already signed for a lesson on Monday when I can go again.
<3
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Date: 2010-02-11 07:47 pm (UTC)you still touch them because that's the habit. I'm sure I'd still touch my nose in hoping I up my glasses even the time I won't wear them..
Nice really, it can help I know (even though I don't *sweats*)
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Date: 2010-02-11 03:36 am (UTC)It was a complete coincidence but I feel so refreshed because I talked to, you know, people with similar interest and of similar age and state of mind
I totally understand. I always bring a book to read on my breaks during my long classes but I always end up talking to fellow classmates instead ABOUT CLASS and sometimes I think I'm crazy but actually, it's really... yeah, refreshing. :D I'm glad you're getting that stimulation again. :)
Ironing. :D I do not own an iron, either. But I've never been in a place that didn't before. It's ok, though. We all have something strange like your ironing fetish. XD
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Date: 2010-02-11 07:20 pm (UTC)As for ironing, it is more or less normal here, people give up on pyjamas and underwear mostly but otherwise iron most of their clothes. It has something to do with driers being scarce. So my fetish is not so "fetish-y" by local standards. But I knew it would be amusing to put it out there XDDD