He knew - chapter 8

[higure]

Title:  He knew
Pairing: Ryoda, Maruda
Chapter: 8
Rating: Safe (for now anyway, and I doubt it will ever be more than PG 13)
Summary:  Ryo mocked Ueda all the time, but time has passed. Ueda got stronger and is in a relationship now. Ryo might not be able to mend what he has broken in the past.

Disclaimer:  It would be really fun, if I could just order them online, and in a week they would arrive in a box all plastered with signs FRAGILE on it.
No beta


This fic was moved to my writing community pillow_verse, to read the fic, follow the link: the love you drive away from me ends in the rain


I can´t even talk about this one. I just want to apologize for the heavy angst-ing these past few chapters. This one (unlike the others) was planned. Do not run away from me just yet, please.

Comments and criticism are love and strength as this one really tired me out.

Comments

[ramadiii.livejournal.com]

This one was wonderful!!! Can't wait to see what happeneds after this :P

Keep up the good work <3

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

this was like super super fast:) thank you :) I will try:)

[floppy-snoopi.livejournal.com]

owh seriouslyyyyyy? they ARE breaking up?!! Maru IS giving up on tatchan although he says that he loved him? my myyyyyy what a cliffanger XD (not really u_u ) i was hopping for that to happened :P

now... what will ryo do when he'll know about this? maru will try to get the two of them together right? :D or jin?

argh ryo move your sexy ass damnit >_<

thanks for the updateeeeeeee

will be waiting *o*

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

lol, since you said you didn´t like Maruda, I knew you did wait for this:)
thanks for reading:)
It seems I am the only one grieving over them:)

[jindaluver.livejournal.com]

my heart...it's hurting :(
ooh,poor maru and tat-chan.
i can't bear with this hurt feeling.
nice update!will be looking forward for next
*clenching my heart*

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

:( mine too, I can´t believe I was so cruel when I wrote a concept for this fic, i grew to like those two together:)
Anyway, sorry about the hurt and thanks for reading.

[chivakaza.livejournal.com]

lol...etooooo.... somehow.... I knew this will ...eventually.... end up like this .*sighs*
what am i supposed to do?? only smile over your ryoda liking XD

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

well the think is ... this was long forseen, what will happen afterwards, however ... :) And you know, didn´t you think it would be Tat-chan leaving Maru and not the other way around? Or am I that predictable?

[chivakaza.livejournal.com]

naaaaah ....I knew you wouldn´t do Tat-chan so mean XD so I didn´t really know what would happen...but ...I knew you wouldn´t make him split up with maru ...
anyway .. I am looking forward to the next chapterXD

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

I guess you know me too well:)
anyway, I was so sad writing this, the chapter was half written from the start but I kept on putting it off, because I grieved with maru and tat-chan over this. It just proves I am a masochist who likes to torture herself :)

[creamy-amande.livejournal.com]

*ninja in* I actually thought that! None in their right mind would think Maru would be the one to break up...unless we're mature enough and see Maru is too...

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

someone said Maru is really different here:( Maybe that´s why it wasn´t so predictable (Unless you are my sister of course XO) But I am glad I could "surprise" you a bit ...

[meikoxlove.livejournal.com]

You know, when I was reading that part where Ueda thought Nakamaru had to talk with him about something, I was thinking "I bet he's going to break up with Ueda". Haha, how right I was...

Am I sadistic for being glad that they broke up? XD
But in my mind romantic MaruDa just doesn't work. For me they are just friends. >__<
(To be honest I don't really like Nakamaru in this story, he is so different... :( Please don't kill me for saying this. D:)

Well, it was a great chapter. The hard work was definetely worth it. ;) Keep it up.

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

Maru? Is he really? I guess my image of him is pretty far away from reality:)
Hmmm... sadistic, I guess not, you just have your own preferences, just like everyone else:)
Thank you for reading:)

[yamapi-konkon.livejournal.com]

*sobs* So Saaad! T___T



Thank you~ :D

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

no:) thank you:) *sobs with you*

[creamy-amande.livejournal.com]

*speechless*
Okay not so much but speechless anyway...
Beautiful, mind blowing, hurtful, angsty, lots of emotions through me, I even want to cry for Maru...it's the one time I feel and adore a MaruDa...I can't believe he broke up with Tatsuya! It was bound to happen to end up a RyoDa (or not if a MaruDa) but it was so heartbreaking! And Ueda's resolve not to go to Ryo! Well he can't go to Ryo like this, just after that anyway, it'd be inappropriate, but Maru's just so awesome. And the bit where he tore his song, the one Tatsuya wrote for him....so Waohhh...

One thing though -much lol- : breaking up now could bring unsatisfactory and unprofessional dance routines/singing for the concerts! I mean, Ueda breaking down, Maru being "away" mentally...unless their professional way of dealing is stronger...anyway

god, are you updating soon? (lol you just did). You know, I love being tortured by fics...I keep grasping my heart so tight!

PS : could I, in the future, maybe add your fics to my rec list?

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

I had to appologize to my fictional Maru for this chapter:) I was soooo sad writing it. Anyway, what´s done is done. I kind of rely on their professionality when it comes to concerts:)

Update - something came up, so not today as I though I would, ´cause a good idea struck me yesterday when I wrote this:) But I will try to be fast as usual. Althoug next few days will be kind of bussy when I think about it now ... oh well, I will really try:)

Rec list? Of course you can:) It will be an honour. ♥ *blushes violently*

[creamy-amande.livejournal.com]

Well don't to be hurried anyway. YOu have to keep the suspense tense-r and most of all, just take your time (not too much alright XP)

thank you !

[miruiki.livejournal.com]

finally!! <<*ryoda biased XD*
YEY. NOW MOAR SPACE FOR RYODAAA 8D
Im wondering thow how Ueda will cope up with it
since he didnt take the break up so well. o.O
aaaagh i hope Ueda nd Ryo get along well~
coz he might think this whole break ups ryo's fault~ for confessing @___@

anyway great chapter :)
do continue ;)

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

:) So many people are happy this hapened, I guess I haven´t done a good job showing how nice Maruda can be:(
Anyway thank you for reading, I will continue:)

[messyboo.livejournal.com]

uwaaa!!!
i want maruda but i want ryoda too!!!
i don't know which one i should pity...
*smacks self*

anyway, thanks ne for ypdating~
looking forward to the next one~~~

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

thanks for reading :) I don´t know which one to choose too:) so no need to smack yourself XO

[alaruber.livejournal.com]

omg... so sad!
i love this chapter...
*takes tissue and wipes tears*

thanks for the wonderful update ( even though its so sad)

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

You are welcome and thank you for reading and keeping up with me. *hands you some chocolate to calm down* :)

[snow-meow.livejournal.com]

So Maru sacrifices which something which is to be expected from him.

Ueda tells Maru off why can't he be selfish, I think Maru can't because it is not his nature to sit and watch the person he loves suffer.

Maru tearing his song from Ueda's book is so painful. It is like to mark the ending of their relationship.

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

Even though Ueda feels it as Maru´s sacrifice, I wonder if it really is like that ... anyway, thank you for reading:)

[resha-hime.livejournal.com]

Well this one wasn't SOOO bad. At least my heart's still in one piece. XO Gosh, I can't help thinking everyone's just so stupid. ^^;;

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

Stupid in love, isn´t it? I guess this chapter is more sad for me:)
Thanks again for reading:)Glad your heart could take it.

[isodia.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry but I really can't wait for the next chapter~ ^_^;;
You've really got me hooked here... ♥

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

Well no reason to be sorry, it will come, it will just take another day or two, as usually:)
Thanks for reading - for getting hooked ♥

[raixas.livejournal.com]

*sobs*
poor maru, poor tatchan, poor ryo...
everyone is hurting inside...

thank you for updating ne~ ^^

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

you are welcome:) thanks for reading:)

[kazuya-love.livejournal.com]

this chapter is too sad... they were all hurting.. but i guess maru was who really hurt the most.. huhuhu! he sacrifice his love for tat-chan... T_T''

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

it is, it is sad:( Thanks for reading

[shobe12.livejournal.com]

this is just great.
maru's so sweet, but his hurting himself..
wonder what will happen next.

cant wait for more..:)

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

I wonder myself:) Thank you very much for reading

[red-aka-merah.livejournal.com]

Poor Maru....
He's really a nice guy....
Can't wait to see RyoDa.....
Thanks for sharing ne......;)

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

you too, thanks for reading ...

[dayenniez.livejournal.com]

*wipes my tears*
I hope Maru will found someone else that will love him more than he can do..
He is the real hero in this story, right?
I'll be waiting for the next,
my feeling mixed so bad, don't know what to say at all..
but this chapter was great as usual..

Thanks dear~~

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

thanks for reading, this part was so hard to write so I apreciate that you read and liked it:)

[brown-cinnamon.livejournal.com]

I'm late, again ^^;;
But heavy angst is always ♥
Sorry, I always have a soft spot for that genre. Lol.

Breaking up.
Well, it does happen, when there's no love, no toleration. On a personal note, I think toleration is much more important that love, and to connect it with this, I guess Maru couldn't take it..anymore?

Sorry for being a bit random, and thanks for the update :))

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

not so late - the next one is not up, yet:)
Angst - no problem, everybody have somethig, I keep thinking how to get out of this angsting part, I need to make it lighter ... but ... will see will see:)
Tolerance and trust are important and well, you saw what happened, :)
Thanks for reading and I am glad you were random:)

[oxokawaiiox.livejournal.com]

omg i started crying again *wipes another set of tears*
ah shiet, no i dunno what should be the fate for tat-chan now!
owh gawd *wipes again* its too complicated x____X

thanks *sniffles*
on to next one >___<''

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

maybe you really should stop for today ... I mean ... oh never mind, you seem to be catching up on this one and I am so glad you came back to it, so thank you and you know bear with me because this really turned out to be much more of a drama than I anticipated ...
thanks for reading and always commenting:)