This is getting ridiculous

[higure]

Someone commented on ryoda_continuum the other day, and it made my heart hurt a bit. DAMN the unfinished thing bugs me. I was thinking of taking it up myself, but yeah the number of exchanges together with real life stuff is just not making it any better.

Speaking of, there is a jent_bigbang community now, and I’m tempted to sign up only to finish the Ryoda rock band AU that I started to write a year ago! Sobs. It would mean an incentive to finish and possibly a fanart to go with it, but I’m thinking I should finish it sooner than next January.

Once I finish NEWSFicOn! I will have only rainbowbridge fic to write and I guess holls if I sign up, but that seems ages from now. Still it feels like this year I will write only for exchanges and challenges. Something went terribly wrong. I also have a feeling that once I actually manage to graduate (if I manage to-that is) and find a job, I will not have half as much time as I have now or had in the past.

So here is my pledge, though I have no clue how and when I will achieve this.
I will finish my ryoda rock band AU this year.
I will write the last “promised” instalment of “trains and trails” before . . . hmm end of October just to be realistic and given everything that is to happen until then.
I will pick up ryoda_continuum (unless someone wants to do that for me) and write an ending. Which might feel rushed given where the fic is, but I think it is safe to say that this project turned very unsuccessful and I hate unfinished multichapter fics, so it needs to be done.

I know I will have an urge to write for memes and my friends and just because fandom is one huge fiction all the time but I will try to concentrate on these projects before I write anything else. I will not say I won’t post anything else in the meantime because well I apparently write best in the middle of the night and unplanned, but these things need to somehow get done. Well I can only hope I will have Sundays free once I start working.

To balance out all these weird fic talks, there was the 5 questions meme going around ages ago and I have asked imifumei for some questions back then and never posted answers. So I guess I am finally answering them, to keep the tradition of really really long posts going.

1. What is something you dislike doing that you wish you enjoyed?
This is a super hard question. It would be fun if I could enjoy some of the house work I don’t like doing, like hanging washed laundry out. It would make life easier. And I used to enjoy watching movies much more than I do now. Now I am just too picky and cannot do heavy stuff almost at all, it throws me off balance so much. I wish that’ d change. Otherwise, nothing substantial comes to my mind. I try to take things on as they come, so really. Oh wait, I know. Academic writing. I’d do a PhD right away if I enjoyed it. But I really really do not most of the time, so . . .

2. Do you enjoy dancing? If so, what makes you want to dance? If not, why do you think that is?
I do a lot. Hmm . . . good beat? Poppy or funky melody. Funny lyrics, an atmosphere . . . I dance while cooking a lot, just moving around kitchen. Nah I just like to grove I guess.

3. What is your favorite fairy tale or fable?
I thought so hard about this, but the only thing that came to my mind was Polepetko (čo popletie všetko). Translated, Polepetko (name) who mixes up everything. Which is an old phonograph record we would listen to all the time. It’s about a young man who messes up everything (for example, his father weaves baskets for living and he sends him to get sticks for it and Polepetko destroys their fence bringing fence poles instead, now just saying but weave and mix up, confuse, things sound the same in Slovakian). It was full of word plays and cute songs (oh yeah it was kind of a musical) and it was just really cool. I found it the other day and plan on playing it sometimes. From like the classics tales everyone knows, I liked Sleeping beauty a lot I guess. I’m really no good with favorites.

4. What do you like to do if you are up in the middle of the night and can't sleep?
I’ll either read or write. I used to watch series, Japanese or American a lot, but recently it’s really reading or writing. Because if I am up in the middle of the night (and it’s not because I need to study) it usually means my brain cannot shut up.

5. What was your favorite subject in elementary school? Did it change by the time you were in high school?
Math, and no it did not. I loved school in general. I went to elementary school for 4 years (typically it was 8 or 9 at the time) then switched to one of those hmm … local specificities called 8 years high school. Basically you can switch from elementary and go to school that would normally be the typical high school with 4 years track but now they offer the possibility for kids to start early and go to the same school from 5th till 12th grade. We had the same math teacher the entire time, quite strict but very fair and quirky person. He taught (still does actually) at university as well and that was his teaching method, very uni like, nothing like other teachers. He just randomly picked like 10 people out of my class after like first month and made us go through all kinds of math competitions. About 5 of us stuck it out with him until end of high school, and it was stressful and just ugh, but I liked the guy and liked math. It made sense and there was (usually) an answer at the end. When I was in US in 11th grade, I took AP Calculus and did the AP exam students get to do at the end. I got 5 which is like the highest grade I think. And a few tiny colleges tried to recruit me freaking my parents a bit. Clearly it made complete sense to go on and study law after high school. Yeah right, I really liked math and I still enjoy it.

Oh right, I forgot. There is this Ryoda . . . hmm. The kind of pointless killing in the background makes my like for it a bit dubious, but the rest of it is awesome, so I am linking it after all.

Im now off to bottle some peaches. Again.

Comments

[beltenebra.livejournal.com]

I totally empathize with that realization that most of your writing is for exchanges... I haven't written anything for myself since before DoA. Mind you, I really like my exchange fics so far but man. I have so many other things I also want to work on. Someone commented on Mortal City the other day and I have the same reaction as you. I felt bad that I haven't worked on it in ages.

I think it's fantastic that you are setting yourself finishing fic goas, though! I think I will have to do the same thing after Squick. XD

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[sashjun.livejournal.com]

Yeah I too like what I got out of myself for most of these things. I mean the Valentine or the remix do not even seem like this year, but they were this year and I was happy with them, as am I with my fqf, doa too come to think of it. But yeah I still haven´t named all the "organized" fic things I participated in. It´s mostly the conscience too: how can I write something else when this and this challenge isn't finished.

Well I seriously hope i can keep my goals. If i do I will be pretty happy with me at the end of the year.

<3

[pipsqueaks.livejournal.com]

We already talked about the exchange thing DX it's so energy-crushing atm, I don't even remember when I last wrote anything for me at all. Good luck with getting your goals accomplished!

I am sort of @-@ about your love for maths really, it's not a subject I could ever get enthusiastic about even though higher-level maths is really creative ... I just never got into it enough at school to enjoy it. Oh well~

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

Yeah we did. I guess it is. Or more like psychically I can not take the constant pressure of disappointing someone specific who is waiting for the fic . . .

Lol me and maths. They say I got that from my grandmother. She loved to count (money, potatoes, jars of jam made over the summer ;D) The higher maths is creative but also more frustrating I think, which is frankly the biggest reason why I didn´t go study it after high school. That and frankly also the fact that pure scientists, mathematicians not withstanding, earn very close to nothing around here and I am practical. IDK just the school maths, slowly discovering new parts of it, and playing along, was fun. But yeah most of people just raise an eyebrow, so don´t worry you probably din´t miss that much.

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[goldfreckled.livejournal.com]

Good luck on your resolutions, I totally get what you're talking about, when I look at my list of fic I want to write, most of it is for other people. I like that, mostly, because it's bound to make someone happy (except if I screw up, that is XD), but I don't like not being able to write something I want to write because there's a deadline a few days later. And I have that situation a lot. /ramble

Also: maths, my eternal enemy~ You were in the US? :3

[sashjun.livejournal.com]

Yeah I like writing for people, on the other hand it has me under constant pressure of too much expectations and it is weighting down on me a bit too much lately.

Lol maths is fun, a thing I have a hard time persuading people about.

Ehhh, Yes. For almost a year. 11th grade of school in its entirety.