How I get easily distracted
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By now, like half of my f-list has done this one. So writing meme.
(1) when did you start writing?
Hmm . . . I liked writing for school. And I have been writing sucky poetry in my free time since I was like what 12, idk maybe a little more; I should go check out this one my father used to have framed, but idk if it made it to his new office. I don’t remember which birthday of his that was. But I was all involved and stuff by the time I was 16. Oh puberty. Fanfiction aka writing in other than my native language, lol, beginning of 2009.
(2) first drafts. handwritten, typed or combination?
Hand written or typed. Though the first fic was typed, since ehm I was supposed to be making notes in a class. It’s easier if they are typed, because when writing fast I can’t read after myself. But oh boy, the back pages of my notebooks used to be crazy at times. These days though, the word application on my blackberry sometimes saves me that trouble.
(3) do you keep any kind of notebook or writer's journal, and if so, what kind of things go into it?
Yes, it’s a hard cover notebook that has my diary from when I was in States (3 whole entries of it), my mother’s recipes from when I was in Switzerland, tons of prompts from my je_prompts prompt table, almost all of I can’t spar and couple of others written on a bus and idk random stuff I put down when I remember I have it. I also have three A4 format papers of notes for Trains and trails folded in it now because I realized that if it keeps lying around my dorm table, nothing will be visible of those pencil scribbling by the time I need it. I’m hopeless.
(4) do you set any quotas for your work (number of words per day, number of hours per day, etc.)? why or why not?
No. I write and it’s this word vomit. Or it does not happen, so then I close the PC or throw the papers away. It’s just not about forcing it.
(5) are you most comfortable writing short stories, novels, or something else?
I’m not a writer, I do not write novels. My fics are usually longish compared to people who are amazing and fit much more in much fewer words, but those are still short stories I would say.
(6) what's your favorite kind of story to write?
Oh now I remember why I was hesitating about this. I’m shallow guys. The famous fall in love/or in bed pattern. I am here for the sappy. This is my hobby, I want happy. IDK I really can’t do angst that much, and I try to avoid serious stuff. It drains me.
Actually I like to play with touches and sounds at times, with human motion I guess. In a way, I like writing stuff like this or this(scroll down to the end of the entry) but that takes lots of energy and vocab that I lack, and I wonder if I could do it more than just in a form of a short drabble or a few sentences hidden in my drawer at a time.
(7) talk about a story of yours that was easy to write and one that was difficult to write, and why.
From top of my head, this year my fic games fic was awful, but that was mainly my fault, and I get insecure when writing who I wrote for it(even more than usually, that is). Also remix, ugh, I was so afraid of ruining someone’s story; it was definitely tying my hands, my brain and everything in between down. Jun in DOA because it’s freaking JUN! Oh right I answered in reverse order. As for easy, Rimming project no. 3 (that was like whooooot but it’s porn so, and lol I was fuming), first chapter of Trains and trails, and the ficolate fic both of which were just fun to write. I liked playing with the mornings in the „Ficolate fic” and Trains and trails was written on a train. Which is always fun.
(8) which of your characters is closest to your sense of self? in other words, who do you most identify in your own work to date?
I’m eaten up by the character the POV from which I write. It’s not so much identifying as there is a story I live in that moment. I don’t like to find parallels with people I write. And sometimes I wonder if I even write them constantly, but I am the constant, right?
(9) what work are you most proud of right now?
Conquering DOA. And I will repeat this over and over again, I like my Ficolate contribution awfully lot. Rofl I guess fqf this year wasn’t that bad either, but that is not because of me only. Far from it.
(10) what do you feel your strengths and weaknesses are as a writer?
Strengths . . . I’m not afraid to be cheesy?
Weaknesses: Lack of vocabulary (knowing what it means and using it are worlds apart), lack of variety and angst, of plot at times, holes in my plot, rashness, too little said in too many words. This all comes with the fact that I usually sit down and write. Really once I stop writing, I become one insecure bundle of nerves so there you have it. Oh yeah, how would I have forgotten. Grammar. And sentences way too long.
(11) name a few writers who have influenced you or your work in some way.
I have never thought about this. Most of the books I have read were in Slovak, so I don’t think they could influence my style in writing fan fiction in English. In, like, academic writing and stuff, I go back and try to make sentences shorter and sometimes even lessen the big words „vocab” because I always feel how incomprehensible and even silly some scholars sound when trying to fit all the terminology, all the Latin and those huge sentences in. I think it sometimes lessens the quality. Yes, you have to be precise and stuff, but you should stay on the ground. So old scholars make me try not to write like them ;D. As for English, I really do not know.
(12) talk about something you've written that you later found embarrassing for some reason.
I slap myself for every time I make the boys cry or be mushy. I still end up doing it, more the mushy, less of the crying lately. It’s not embarrassing until Rin starts to quote it into my IM, but in a way porn is difficult to reread. And oh man, when you get it beta-ed. THAT IS EMBARASSING! Though I tend to laugh at the end because it is just as funny as embarrassing.
(13) talk about the earliest stories you remember writing. what were they about?
So let’s keep this in fandom, okay? Then it would be Ryo and Ueda, and Ueda definitely ended up crying in that one because he was just that lonely. Out of fandom, I used to write pretty bitter poetry.
(14) if you knew you'd be successful, what would you most like to write?
Ah, I really have no ambitions. Memoires of one obsessive cleaner. And I would include all the stories that happened to me while cleaning. My mother loves to clean and I have done it for money as well. And depending on place and apartments . . . anyway it would be fun to try to describe those silly episodes, try to make them funny, impose self irony on me. Once I’m be old and living by Lac Leman, I might try just for the fun of it ;D
(15) what inspires you?
I have said before that I do not believe in inspiration (that much). Because really there are times, when I have no clue what I will write, I just sit down and am like. I need to write. Ready, steady, go. But if I am looking for a trigger, then for fandom, rumors, strange behavior, silly happenings from concert reports, parts of interviews, matching t-shirts ;D (or the same color of pajamas), water and apparently sound of traveling because I literally itch when in some means of transportation.
(16) how many projects do you tend to work on at once?
It used to be one fic at a time, Now it’s like, an exchange at a time, and random things that hit me in between.
(17) who reads your work before it's released to public? do you have beta readers, a critique group, etc.?
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tokeruyouna and pipsqueaks are usually the ones that get even unfinished stuff from me (and also my sister, I throw stuff at her too <333) when I just need that kick or someone to tell me that it does not suck (because I stopped writing and I cannot feel it anymore, hello insecurities) and they are awesome. They both also beta for me, along with beltenebra and other mainly English language speakers on my f-list(I love you all for all the help, seriously ♥). I write for too many „events” lately so … But there are times when I just write and no one but me reads through it. I should maybe apologize for posting those as well.
(18) when you're not writing, what do you do for fun?
I wonder how this is relevant to my writing, I read, watch dramas, go to see movies, hang out with friends, wander around where I live at the moment or travel, I used to volunteer in all kinds of students organizations to spike my nerves some more . . . Just I exist.
(19) advice to other writers?
This is hard, once a person finds herself writing for others, having readers that the author wants to please, once the author realizes there might be expectations. But if writing is your hobby, if it makes you happy, then that is what it should be. It should always be about the fun of it, of sitting down and plunging in the world your own words create. Nothing that happens afterwards matters (other than your recipient’s wrath, but really people usually try hard to write so that they please this one and only person that might be a little exception to this advice in fandom writing). If you enjoy yourself, if you feel good writing, not pressured, I believe the result will „reek” of that fun and enjoyment and will be that much better. Yes we all try, we try to get our grammar in check, plot to cooperate, characters to behave, but essentially isn’t that too part of the fun, of the whole writing process and experience. So I advise you to make the most of it. Being how insecure I get, I should really try to follow my advices more. But I know that when I manage, it makes the difference.
(20) what are you currently working on?
I am struggling with my newsficon, so that I can move to one of my very own, for me, wips and to rainbowbridge. Which is why I should not be doing this meme at all.
(21) share the first three sentences of a work in progress.
ok, but not the news fic on one.
When Nakamaru falls off Ueda´s couch for the third time that month—with a resounding thud and a low grunt that follows it, Ueda gets up from his bed, crosses his living room in three long strides and pulls Nakamaru back into the bedroom with him. Whatever, the bed is big and Nakamaru is long not wide; they can share. Nakamaru never stays over again.
I’m off to try and practice my own advice. Talk to you all later.
(1) when did you start writing?
Hmm . . . I liked writing for school. And I have been writing sucky poetry in my free time since I was like what 12, idk maybe a little more; I should go check out this one my father used to have framed, but idk if it made it to his new office. I don’t remember which birthday of his that was. But I was all involved and stuff by the time I was 16. Oh puberty. Fanfiction aka writing in other than my native language, lol, beginning of 2009.
(2) first drafts. handwritten, typed or combination?
Hand written or typed. Though the first fic was typed, since ehm I was supposed to be making notes in a class. It’s easier if they are typed, because when writing fast I can’t read after myself. But oh boy, the back pages of my notebooks used to be crazy at times. These days though, the word application on my blackberry sometimes saves me that trouble.
(3) do you keep any kind of notebook or writer's journal, and if so, what kind of things go into it?
Yes, it’s a hard cover notebook that has my diary from when I was in States (3 whole entries of it), my mother’s recipes from when I was in Switzerland, tons of prompts from my je_prompts prompt table, almost all of I can’t spar and couple of others written on a bus and idk random stuff I put down when I remember I have it. I also have three A4 format papers of notes for Trains and trails folded in it now because I realized that if it keeps lying around my dorm table, nothing will be visible of those pencil scribbling by the time I need it. I’m hopeless.
(4) do you set any quotas for your work (number of words per day, number of hours per day, etc.)? why or why not?
No. I write and it’s this word vomit. Or it does not happen, so then I close the PC or throw the papers away. It’s just not about forcing it.
(5) are you most comfortable writing short stories, novels, or something else?
I’m not a writer, I do not write novels. My fics are usually longish compared to people who are amazing and fit much more in much fewer words, but those are still short stories I would say.
(6) what's your favorite kind of story to write?
Oh now I remember why I was hesitating about this. I’m shallow guys. The famous fall in love/or in bed pattern. I am here for the sappy. This is my hobby, I want happy. IDK I really can’t do angst that much, and I try to avoid serious stuff. It drains me.
Actually I like to play with touches and sounds at times, with human motion I guess. In a way, I like writing stuff like this or this(scroll down to the end of the entry) but that takes lots of energy and vocab that I lack, and I wonder if I could do it more than just in a form of a short drabble or a few sentences hidden in my drawer at a time.
(7) talk about a story of yours that was easy to write and one that was difficult to write, and why.
From top of my head, this year my fic games fic was awful, but that was mainly my fault, and I get insecure when writing who I wrote for it(even more than usually, that is). Also remix, ugh, I was so afraid of ruining someone’s story; it was definitely tying my hands, my brain and everything in between down. Jun in DOA because it’s freaking JUN! Oh right I answered in reverse order. As for easy, Rimming project no. 3 (that was like whooooot but it’s porn so, and lol I was fuming), first chapter of Trains and trails, and the ficolate fic both of which were just fun to write. I liked playing with the mornings in the „Ficolate fic” and Trains and trails was written on a train. Which is always fun.
(8) which of your characters is closest to your sense of self? in other words, who do you most identify in your own work to date?
I’m eaten up by the character the POV from which I write. It’s not so much identifying as there is a story I live in that moment. I don’t like to find parallels with people I write. And sometimes I wonder if I even write them constantly, but I am the constant, right?
(9) what work are you most proud of right now?
Conquering DOA. And I will repeat this over and over again, I like my Ficolate contribution awfully lot. Rofl I guess fqf this year wasn’t that bad either, but that is not because of me only. Far from it.
(10) what do you feel your strengths and weaknesses are as a writer?
Strengths . . . I’m not afraid to be cheesy?
Weaknesses: Lack of vocabulary (knowing what it means and using it are worlds apart), lack of variety and angst, of plot at times, holes in my plot, rashness, too little said in too many words. This all comes with the fact that I usually sit down and write. Really once I stop writing, I become one insecure bundle of nerves so there you have it. Oh yeah, how would I have forgotten. Grammar. And sentences way too long.
(11) name a few writers who have influenced you or your work in some way.
I have never thought about this. Most of the books I have read were in Slovak, so I don’t think they could influence my style in writing fan fiction in English. In, like, academic writing and stuff, I go back and try to make sentences shorter and sometimes even lessen the big words „vocab” because I always feel how incomprehensible and even silly some scholars sound when trying to fit all the terminology, all the Latin and those huge sentences in. I think it sometimes lessens the quality. Yes, you have to be precise and stuff, but you should stay on the ground. So old scholars make me try not to write like them ;D. As for English, I really do not know.
(12) talk about something you've written that you later found embarrassing for some reason.
I slap myself for every time I make the boys cry or be mushy. I still end up doing it, more the mushy, less of the crying lately. It’s not embarrassing until Rin starts to quote it into my IM, but in a way porn is difficult to reread. And oh man, when you get it beta-ed. THAT IS EMBARASSING! Though I tend to laugh at the end because it is just as funny as embarrassing.
(13) talk about the earliest stories you remember writing. what were they about?
So let’s keep this in fandom, okay? Then it would be Ryo and Ueda, and Ueda definitely ended up crying in that one because he was just that lonely. Out of fandom, I used to write pretty bitter poetry.
(14) if you knew you'd be successful, what would you most like to write?
Ah, I really have no ambitions. Memoires of one obsessive cleaner. And I would include all the stories that happened to me while cleaning. My mother loves to clean and I have done it for money as well. And depending on place and apartments . . . anyway it would be fun to try to describe those silly episodes, try to make them funny, impose self irony on me. Once I’m be old and living by Lac Leman, I might try just for the fun of it ;D
(15) what inspires you?
I have said before that I do not believe in inspiration (that much). Because really there are times, when I have no clue what I will write, I just sit down and am like. I need to write. Ready, steady, go. But if I am looking for a trigger, then for fandom, rumors, strange behavior, silly happenings from concert reports, parts of interviews, matching t-shirts ;D (or the same color of pajamas), water and apparently sound of traveling because I literally itch when in some means of transportation.
(16) how many projects do you tend to work on at once?
It used to be one fic at a time, Now it’s like, an exchange at a time, and random things that hit me in between.
(17) who reads your work before it's released to public? do you have beta readers, a critique group, etc.?
tokeruyouna and pipsqueaks are usually the ones that get even unfinished stuff from me (and also my sister, I throw stuff at her too <333) when I just need that kick or someone to tell me that it does not suck (because I stopped writing and I cannot feel it anymore, hello insecurities) and they are awesome. They both also beta for me, along with beltenebra and other mainly English language speakers on my f-list(I love you all for all the help, seriously ♥). I write for too many „events” lately so … But there are times when I just write and no one but me reads through it. I should maybe apologize for posting those as well. (18) when you're not writing, what do you do for fun?
I wonder how this is relevant to my writing, I read, watch dramas, go to see movies, hang out with friends, wander around where I live at the moment or travel, I used to volunteer in all kinds of students organizations to spike my nerves some more . . . Just I exist.
(19) advice to other writers?
This is hard, once a person finds herself writing for others, having readers that the author wants to please, once the author realizes there might be expectations. But if writing is your hobby, if it makes you happy, then that is what it should be. It should always be about the fun of it, of sitting down and plunging in the world your own words create. Nothing that happens afterwards matters (other than your recipient’s wrath, but really people usually try hard to write so that they please this one and only person that might be a little exception to this advice in fandom writing). If you enjoy yourself, if you feel good writing, not pressured, I believe the result will „reek” of that fun and enjoyment and will be that much better. Yes we all try, we try to get our grammar in check, plot to cooperate, characters to behave, but essentially isn’t that too part of the fun, of the whole writing process and experience. So I advise you to make the most of it. Being how insecure I get, I should really try to follow my advices more. But I know that when I manage, it makes the difference.
(20) what are you currently working on?
I am struggling with my newsficon, so that I can move to one of my very own, for me, wips and to rainbowbridge. Which is why I should not be doing this meme at all.
(21) share the first three sentences of a work in progress.
ok, but not the news fic on one.
When Nakamaru falls off Ueda´s couch for the third time that month—with a resounding thud and a low grunt that follows it, Ueda gets up from his bed, crosses his living room in three long strides and pulls Nakamaru back into the bedroom with him. Whatever, the bed is big and Nakamaru is long not wide; they can share. Nakamaru never stays over again.
I’m off to try and practice my own advice. Talk to you all later.
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Date: 2010-08-16 12:23 am (UTC)*squish* IAWTC!!
I love reading people's answers to this meme, it's cool how everybody works differently.
I also love that you love what you wrote for ficolate. I love it, too. <33
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Date: 2010-08-16 05:32 pm (UTC)yeah there must be something in that we are all unique thing ;D
hahaha I´m glad you do <3